Wednesday, December 31, 2008

How The Kingdom Among A Kingdom Costs A Monastery,

How the kingdom among a kingdom costs a monastery, Wordly temptations in the distance behind a fencing, But how in a fencing - lilacs bushes What breathe on a joy? And as from looks have not hidden heavens, Elevated and, means, terrestrial At which it is necessary to peer to you, And all human looks again. I.Severjanin. The terrestrial sky Thick "Boeing" flies over ocean. The dazzling stewardess moves in pass between armchairs, carries a wheelchair with viands and drinks, distributes dinners and smiles: - Pliz, the sir!. , the sir!. Addresses to our compatriot who has ruffled up on the sitting: - Pliz, the sir! - grandmas are not present! - he answers it and turns away from seductive bottles and snack. She was surprised, but a smile from the person has not cleaned, and when has reached an instrument compartment under the instruction has finished to the first pilot that onboard there is a strange passenger with not clear language and unmotivated acts. The pilot has immediately contacted the international centre of language dialects, there have included on search all programs in all computers, long searched, but nevertheless the answer have found.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

No, I Could Not Be Your Wife Any

No, I could not be your wife any there under the account. Thought earlier: would get on. No. It is terrible to tell, but I with them with all bad would make something. And you know, correctly that we with you have not floated anywhere as offered trade union. I would not transfer the such: you - nearby and now, both in the evening, and at night, both tomorrow, and still tomorrow, and still then. At me such - would not sustain heart. Or - nerves and then I somewhere would dive, has jumped - with this impossible happiness, I simply would choke it. And you on funeral would not become angry about me and when you would began to reproach, made a helpless gesture: "Yes there is no it, and what cannot be cured must be endured!" And now I am. And at me comes to an end last molecules of oxygen, cylinders - empty. And yesterday again dreamt about you. Went on any ladder, and you began to kiss me. The such will dream? And I at what? Generally, I very much for a long time already at night do not sleep almost.

We Have Found Out, Whether The Woman The

We have found out, whether the woman the negligent voice who has been not brushed can, in the middle of the cluttered up apartment and not washed children to send the husband to take out dust - and to make thus so that children really concerned the father, as to God. I understand that from the point of view of many our women is a sedition. And in that our trouble. And basically after all it is unimportant: whether to the father we concern, as God, or God subsequently we start to concern how before concerned the father. A question in other: whether the father which difficultly even simply to respect is necessary to the child? The woman can be really the woman only in the relations with children and with the man. Wish to be the woman? Be. For this purpose it is necessary: to be ready to service to, entirely to accept a direction of a life of the man and, the most important thing, - to have thus surplus of emotional heat to give it, without considering." Here transposition of other newspaper article which opens sense of the book published by the woman American and with enthusiasm by the translated Russian woman: "I.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Here, You Will Tell, It Was Scattered! Only

Here, you will tell, it was scattered! Only it is better, day - for a day. Year - for a year. That has longer sufficed. You my favourite, you my most-most expensive person, here I ask Destiny, God and who there still is: let will be to you - well! My sun, Egorushka, I love you, I so love you! Sometimes comes to mind: and can more than anything and it is not necessary? Can even: after all you with me - are constant, your presence of th it I feel almost that physically. All the same the person - after all first of all its soul. All speak: "The family says goodbye to a body of the such." Means, such is heart, soul, thought, and the body is not he. And if the body is not ourselves means, I have the most essential, and my life filled over edge with you, is - the "higher" life. Here in what you escape and what to do? While I am, you will not take away yourself from me. Would be to fifteen me of years, there would be I of other warehouse - would have been ill, can, and "have recovered". And so - well after all it is impossible.

The The Woman More Aggressively And More Scornfully

The the woman more aggressively and more scornfully in relation to the husband, the comes to it an old age more likely. Well, to each his own. It is asked: so, venerable Nina Terentevna, you suggest us to return to patriarchy, to slavery, to silent humility?! It is not necessary to hold me for such the silly woman, lovely my interlocutors! Who-who, and I in the life have seen enough of tens men - both close, and absolutely closely, and only one of all of them, unforgettable my last spouse, Peter Aleksandrovich, to it heavenly, was both it is cleverer, and is stronger spirit, than I, was the present natural leader. Only he also deserved that I unconditionally could rely on its word, only behind it one I was true "for-husband", felt as behind a stone wall. But they were men, and in the dialogue with them I concerned them as to men. And they became those, or not aspired to correspond to mine to them to the relation. Even the man-boy, that is the one who under the spiritual constitution is ready to shift all responsibility on the wife (and first of all - on mother), and that it is brave the plumelets when the wife validly with it addresses, and is ready to move.

And Then The Stewardess Has Again Gone With

And then the stewardess has again gone with the containers between numbers and has approached to the odd fellow: - Pliz, the sir! - My God! I to you have clearly told: grandmas are not present! And then, it is dazzling smiling, she has answered, as has learnt its all-knowing computer: - On a freebie, the sir! On a freebie!. Perfection is born only from interrelation of the qualities inherent in each floor; if male studying occupies first of all mind, and contemplation of the female is live treads on corns the full satisfaction to reason brings only a combination both, that is pure essence, free from all distinctions of a floor, as property of ideas. The higher unity assumes always an orientation in two opposite sides. The unity only then has value, when its source - abundance, instead of poverty. So, one floor is improved in one, another in other, and both of them, mutually counteracting, together promote surprising unity of the nature which most closely connects whole and simultaneously allows to allocate the separate most clearly.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

My Darling! My Forces Are Settled. I Cannot

My darling! My forces are settled. I cannot hide the thirst more. Not to find a universal shame in eyes of associates, I should leave. Forgive, forgive, forgive me!" Also it is hard - a resignation at own will. As in a fog, with the squeezed heart I spent , to which time. My God, has called Anastas!. Yes, the life knits sometimes such knots, writes such plays which, purposely you will not compose as try: both, as have agreed, have acted simultaneously. Yes, however, to both it was simultaneously very thin, as well as to the third. Easy enough, not to show employees the ropes the personal events I has answered with the dry reference to employment, has hanged up and has continued meeting. Anybody has understood nothing, only at Alevtiny something has puzzly trembled in the person. She has obviously guessed, with whom I speak and have understood that conversation this unusual. Having finished , I have told: "All are free. Alevtina Sergeevna, be late for a second". All have left. It remained to sit, having looked down.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

And Now: Unless Wearied In A Marriage For

And now: unless Wearied in a marriage for Egor, unless Anastas in a marriage for Oleg lived on the model stated by the Lithuanian woman? No, the public situation pushed them to the model presented . And from here - many drama complexities of their biography resulted from vital installation-. And not just from impenetrable sexual as my dear Nina Terentevna confirms. Then that the author entirely for the Lithuanian. (Is more exact, a variant)? , no, we will not hurry up, business looks much more difficult. And this complexity results from surprising variability of all institutes on the Earth. We will try to isolate, of course, a problem kernel, but should itself present distinctly and all its multicomplexity, and communication - each time the - with circumstances of life. At first about this communication. On what as immemorial, firm postulates the postulates ingeniously formulated in the Old testament are perceived: not , do not steal, honour the father and others. But, first, we will recollect that these precepts have been apprehended in due time as abrupt , as infringement of primordial ethical standards (it is comparable the former: "the Eye for an eye" - and new: "If have struck you on one cheek, substitute another").

Balance Of Sympathetic And Parasympathetic Nerves On Which

Balance of sympathetic and parasympathetic nerves on which depends high-grade , becomes business shaky, here and there is a problem of creation of internal universal calmness as bases for impotence overcoming. Pretty often they have that in medicine other-wordly braking is called. From at whom it "is not necessary", almost all weight of the men getting to a foolish situation, are people with failures in automatics. Sharp young women on language have thought up a riddle: "In what a difference between the man and Paris?" The answer: "Paris always Paris." I would tell: they are those women have thought up, at which hair it is long - mind is short. It is necessary not to gloat over in the marked occasion (whether the merit - its own gate the nature is great, instead of by it are forever dissolved!), and the head to think and make so that also the man always was the man! Not to force negative emotions, and to create a quiet, kind, tender spirit - here where a key. Calmness of man's soul, absence nervous in it - my main recipe.

Friday, December 19, 2008

- Nastena, Yes That With You? You? Against?

- Nastena, yes that with you? You? Against? Mine? Affairs?! - is not present, the man without business that a cock without a tail. I not against your affairs. Your affairs against you. And against me. For what I to you? Shirts to erase at rare meetings? - She looked at me easy, without everyone. Airs. And its native person has been aloof from me. It - looked also familiar to me to the latest hyphen, and - the stranger, not mine! - well, one more coat. One more ring. And further that? Rich commemoration? - It directly looked me in the face. - rich commemoration? - I have asked again slowly. All my objections have evaporated at a sight at this become gloomy person who has lost vital energy. - is not present, very rich, - she has recovered, all as, with aloof interest peering into my pupils. - we converged for this purpose? - And how to be? Affairs do not become. - I have told it without obvious quick temper because its correctness - gained as it - has felt at once, all molecules of the nature.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

I Was Indignant: - So I Will Go

I was indignant: - So I will go to his mother, I will talk, properly! - that to it to go, it does not dry out. - as you dare so to speak about adults? - I Dare-not I dare, it always the drunk. to it does not listen. And to Egor at once will listen, as silk. - it is fine, call here Olga, the call text we will make. And here what text of the telegramme we "have thought for three": Egor, favourite (it), come, it is necessary to cure mum (she is Olga) and a thick rope to correct (it is Maxim). Yours the wife, children. I have shown the door delighted Olga and Maxim from a room that they did not hear how I will dictate the telegramme by phone on credit: after all the addressee - in we plough a city, instead of far-far as I it have told. With trembling as the hare tail heart was typed by me "066" and have dictated to the telephonist the text a fruit of our collective creativity. There were 17 hours of 15 minutes. Have passed days. Any messages from it. At me the short wind has begun. I slept or not at night? I do not know.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Whether I Could Suspect About It Of The

Whether I could suspect about it of the correct colleague far from literary circles? And this lava of love expiring from of a volcano. To Destroy similar product was to me not on forces, it would be sacrilege. The note from the Author: Egor has transferred these letters to me. After mature reflexion, I have decided them to publish in endurances, slightly further in the same book that the reader himself could judge the validity or abnormality of perception their Egor. When I have come home, Nastja has attentively looked at me: - That has become sad, the clear? - Yes here, has fallen on the earth dew. - That happens, the darling? - A certain plug with certain employees. It is possible, I will boil while a situation in the kettle? - Well, all right, boil-boil, only look, that has not burnt slightly, difficultly there is then a kettle to clear to is white. I as skilled tell it to you. And what about to eat? I have reported pioneer salute - is always ready! - well then the situation is not hopeless.

Monday, December 1, 2008

. You With Me, Always, Constantly. I As With

. You with me, always, constantly. I as with you speak, as I give a hand sometimes - to touch, me of you - not to cure. Well, has passed nine months, well there will be a year, two, three. I love you, and all here! Not so: "ah, you with me , well and I!." I do not manage without you, I will not manage. The such Somewhere will fly: without you - the life became without sense, without the purpose. Yes in depth I know: did not become, because all the same you - are. I love you. Therefore - also I believe in a life "there, behind horizon, there, somewhere there." There, where you. I love you. It is easy to tell - " ". Yes, of course, character at me sufficed, yes after all these breakdowns went not so much through reason and a reason, how many through heart. And consequently to supersede from memory it is suffering not to fight as on a deadly harpoon on a question: well, why, why so this world is ridiculously arranged? - To dull a usual pain undercover, I have begun to stick. To stick day and night.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Not Without Reason In Some Muslim Countries Young

Not without reason in some Muslim countries young it is offered to talk only all first night. And he wished me to tumble down, pull down at once from me shorts, to rape, better to say. The diplomat!. What here to tell? It was awful night of continuous struggle. When wine steams from its inflamed head, he has realised something, has begun to kiss to me feet, began to repent sincerely. Fall asleep I, of course, could not, and lay till a breakfast, convulsively keeping shorts, and he - it has quickly fallen asleep at me behind the back, . Such memorable marriage night has turned out. For the second night I have very trustfully stated it everything that thought, demanded nothing, only asked to understand me. He gloomy was silent, it is visible, endured the double failure, has then asked only: - But to caress you to me it is possible though ? I have nodded, but became again bitter to me: again all not so! Again words about the love and the tenderness, any signs on attention to me, again only about the requirement.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

I Recollect Thereupon The Story Of Gi Read

I recollect thereupon the story of Gi read still in a youth Maupassant "Who loves me, for me": a baron pursued the passion the princess. And here, at last, after successful, but tiresome wood hunting when they chased all the day long on horses - that wild boars, for deer, it has carried away it behind herself in the lock invocatory exclamation: "Who loves me, for me!." And here it at it, in long-awaited desired bed. "Minute wait, I now." She has whispered, slipping out a bedroom, obviously, in a bath. A Baron, inhaled the oxygen, overstrained in continuous races, it having appeared in a pure fine linen, under a weightless silk blanket, on a down feather-bed as in a whirlpool has failed - has fallen asleep a stone dream. We will present ourselves its feelings when it, dared to surrender the arrogant woman, has found out in itself in a bed without signs of consciousness of the man with a big moustache and it is especially imaginable it when he, at last, has woken up under tickling beams of already hot, already day sun!.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

. - Olezhek, Yes As You Will Find It,

. - Olezhek, yes as you will find it, - I laughed at it, - if at you a shirt collar it was wiped, and after all meet on , - Here! - it lifted a finger. - we are present at a birth of the next masterpiece of female logic. First, the shirt, and that is in it is essentially important not. Secondly, see off on mind, and here, agree, a well that is confirmed by variety state . And, thirdly, the main thing: you just itself also have proved emergency for me the girlfriend! The fact? - The fact, the fact! - I laughed. Relations between us were friendly, as between the in a board guys. But something I began to notice at times certain failures in its playful remarks, whether nervousness that any. It has appeared, as others have noticed it and like casually would leave for us chairs at cathedral sessions by a number, places in the excursion bus nearby, on picnic country have written down, even in a deal to it tent have for two brought. That is, like already would marry us. Well, no! I in such games will not play about - a campaign, chairs to Marina Petrovne have given out, without restraining and, strangely enough, it not it but only has lifted my prestige in public opinion.

Yes, The Russian Woman Has Been Much More

Yes, the Russian woman has been much more unchained, than Chinese, whose virtue was humility and absolute obedience of the husband, but also there, and there the basic function of the wife was the birth of the successor (successors). The same and in a traditional Japanese family: a role of the wife - to give birth to successors for a family of the husband where it have accepted, to penetrate into all details of housekeeping. The husband is obliged to provide well-being of a family. I will not begin to spend time for the analysis of differences of the Japanese family from Chinese or Russian - them much, but an essence, a kernel of the family concept same, and, being exposed to washing away influences of the European or North American model, keeps, however, the stability: as material, and . And moreover, the family foundations based on clear split of a role of the father and mother in a family, close to about what there was a speech earlier, strongly remain in the huge region stretched from Mauritania to Pakistan and covering areas of the Arabian, Iranian and Turkish culture.

Friday, November 21, 2008

And Than That Is Worse: Unexpected Deprivation Of

And than that is worse: unexpected deprivation of work as existence source? It is a direct way to an impotence not at one-two, especially sensitive, it is a mass trouble to us, doctors, well-known. And the wife if it indeed the kind and clever woman, has to the spouse render warm support for the sake of restoration of its mood but not become in a position"here and now", differently can so to become that it will appear in general without a thing. It is good that Egor, the man mentally strong, has not turned sour after the preschedule not deserved demobilisation, it had a steady kernel of self-standing, and that after all he has mentioned that not too all was fine with women at this time, there were also misfires. Also it would be strange, if did not happen. I in a life had scenarios more purely, than at that Kirkei who in "Satyricon" is described: - it, you see Poliena in a powder tried to erase, has taken offence for incapacity to semideath, to few-few its dogs has not given. I arrived differently, antithetically, because I know a subtlety of the device of their psychological mechanism.

And Still - Blasphemous: Let Any Pains, Insults,

And still - blasphemous: let any pains, insults, let everything - only not rest - without you. That is blasphemy that, leaves, and sufferings - happiness. As - it is more preferable, than anything, than density without you. I love you and if to carry out chemical analysis any there it will appear that in my organism - 90 % - you, and I any more do not consider the tenth shares. Last time was in pool, on thirtieth of December - only five persons in water, probably. Perhaps for New year prepared, and can, electricians already met they are all time switched off light. In the dark stra-and-ashno! But "and Egor?" - also you float, where you will get to! Though and it is terrible. I float and will fly a prayer, whether that: "I will not get tired, I love you!" - and the truth - I do not get tired, if I will have time to tell it. Will have time to fly in consciousness: "Let there will be parents", and all the rest - about you. And it will be the second New year. When - you. Even for receipt in institute the experience is required two years.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Quiet, Counterbalanced Woman, The Perspicacious Ruler Showing

The quiet, counterbalanced woman, the perspicacious ruler showing thus both wisdom, and hardness, and courage. About it tells also its relation to war, deprivations. And we will recollect executed by the person of complexity travel to the Byzantian emperor - she perfectly owned diplomacy art. All is the qualities documentary confirmed, quite prove that the woman in Russia was not humiliated. To that examples - both Evfrosinja Polotsk, and princess Maria supervising revolt against a horde. And later image - Feodosiya Morozova, the boyar who has appeared to one of the main characters of tragedy of split. In my opinion, it was not less considerable figure, than protopriest Avvakum. By the way, its correspondence with Avvakumom, other sources draw it as fine mother, the hospitable mistress, in general amazingly presented Russian woman with the bright lively wit undoubtedly prevailing over feelings, however strong they were not. It is surprising, as all these remarkable women owned a word.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

About, The Silly Woman, What Silly Woman! I

About, the silly woman, what silly woman! I thought that I know Egor, tried on on myself: , , I will depart, eventually. And for it words really had protogenic sense, he understood them how they have sounded, circumstances of their occurrence for it did not play a role. Well to it to embrace me, to console, say, finish, the wife to brawl and a slander to bear? I would shout still, , have cried, probably, a little, and all would come to an end. No, it was another, it took words seriously. It was impossible to offend that made its belief, its honour, it was impossible to humiliate it categorically! Apparently, my former experience of the reference with husbands and other men was defective, because they did not appreciate in themselves the man. The vanity and narcissism at them sufficed above a head, and here about feeling of honour they have been deprived concept at all. Has quietly slapped a door. "It is fine, will be aired, will calm down, all will be adjusted. Maxim indeed likes indulgences to arrange to itself".

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

That's All Pleasures! Also It Has Appeared That

That's all pleasures! Also it has appeared that former my males-good fellows - the pettiness near to Egor, near to its sexual ability and talent which it has developed to delightful skill is simple: on pleasure to itself and me. All it was an original multilevel science which anybody from men before familiar to me did not guess at all. Someone from them was considered as "as" if the ten-other various poses was able to apply: what wretchedness, what prehistoric darkness in comparison with that was accessible to Egor! My God, what my personal happiness that we have met it, and what general misfortune that similar ability - a rarity. I hope - while a rarity. However, first of all it has amazed me with the person - by contrast with that pity, requiring constant guardianship and care, helpless herd which is called men. On an operational experience - I some summer seasons have worked for interest the non-staff guide-organizer - what only kinds and confusion childbirth from outside a male for these years I have not seen enough! And all this dependence is surprising at them is combined with impudence, self-confidence, with claims to me as to a female who should be on the top of the world from delight that it this or that goat stinking then, tobacco and port has deigned .

Monday, November 10, 2008

Their Sacred Bodies Have Found In A City

Their sacred bodies have found in a city in cathedral church Prechistoj of the Virgin in uniform to a coffin which they to themselves ordered to make. Unreasonable people, both during lifetime of them , and after their fair representation, have again shifted their bodies in separate coffins and have again carried. And again next morning have appeared sacred in uniform to a coffin. And after that any more did not dare to touch their sacred bodies and have put them in uniform to a coffin in which they ordered, at Rozhdestva Presvjatoj Bogoroditsy's cathedral church in a city (Murom). Here such love - above which cannot be, in the limit a secret ideal of everyone and everyone though and there were they in the external life in all and all cynics. Hence, the channel of communal morals was wide enough and deep to contain in itself and feelings of commoners of Nikita and Uljanitsy, and feeling of the prince and Peter's princess and Fevronii. And at the same time the direction of this stream was defined by powerful incentive forces of other, than individual love, qualities.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

In This Cross History It Is Had, As

In this cross history it is had, as a matter of fact, three quite men and three quite normal women. What do these men do? Drive the lawful wives in a heavy condition of frigidity, that is coldness, that is indifference or even animosities to , to a coition, being expressed by solemn style. Let's think: so far as sexual contact instead of possible pleasure leads to disgust, so soon, means, it is carried out antithetically to how it is planned by the nature. Once again: not with deviations, and antithetically! It is necessary: if the cartographer drew such cards where instead of the sea the mountain is designated, and instead of a bog the asphalt road it would disqualify appears and have driven out, because a card - business strict, it to build at random do not can, and here human, female destiny to break on , on illiteracy is as much as necessary, it - please! One more example: If the diplomat so would lead negotiations with other state that as a result all of a sudden its country would be obliged to give the best earths, it would chuck out far away, and even would bring under article about change to the native land.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

But The Main Thing, For What My Fleeting

But the main thing, for what my fleeting glimpse was hooked, there were sharp wrinkles at lips on his face - traces not so much the lived years, how many the endured troubles. They have forced me to look at it for on persons of the contemporaries of any traces of sufferings I never observed more steadfastly: not to consider for experiences drunk tears which at these always lie nearby. He politely spoke at this time with someone through the table forced by meal, in a profile to me. Us have presented, he has smiled to me and is strong, but has not painfully shaken hands. About, my God! His eyes! On-rysi clear, their sight exhaled such quiet force and internal self-control that all my being the charge in one million has from top to bottom punched volt: "It has come! He/she is my mister!" Till this second I and words such with reference to myself could not present, but, probably, everything that has collected for these years, has at once blown up - because of a stream of its quiet force, confidence, the man's leadership, proceeding from it.

The Single Muzhik At Any Age Was Called

The single muzhik at any age was called as "small". It is natural that on number of marriages Russia was on the first place in Europe and marriages in it were the earliest. As it is natural that widowers and widows entered repeated marriage more often: the assistant on the house and an economy was necessary to the widower, the widow appeared an extra mouth to feed in last family as with death of the husband it was left by its allotment. What role of individual feelings, love in similar rather rigid patriarchal community and, accordingly, a family was? Economic calculation and feeling no means always conflicted, but even if they coincided, the bride as well-known on a wedding ceremony, it was necessary to mourn bitterly over the life in girls before leaving in " the house". And, however, even if the violent young love overcame all barriers, whether the young pair from a rigid stream of the general way could be pulled out?. Alexander Blynskaja's my native grandma, the immigrant from the Oryol province to Siberia, at the very beginning of this century has met and has grown fond in village of Big Rakovo of Shardinsky district of Kurgan volost young (Old Believer) Martin Rakova, and after refusal of big brothers to give it in marriage Martin secretly has stolen it, and there was a deadly pursuit both secret wedding, and hot passion.

Friday, November 7, 2008

I Saw That To It All The Same,

I saw that to it all the same, whether I will be sincere in the persistence or it will hide a certain secret horizon of my acts. We stood and looked each other in the face. It was quiet, anything except deep weariness was not read on her face. - I - have finished it - it is to such - apathy? IT is goddess Artemis?!. I have made two steps forward and, without a word, - what for? - Became before it on knees and has nestled on her feet a head. It was motionless, having put a palm to me on a cinciput. Has then knelt and has put a head to me on a shoulder. Sobbings have started to shake its body, my neck was burnt by its tears. - My God! As I am happy! He has understood, he has heard, My God! What happiness! It the person, it not a wood-grouse on a current! My God! At it ears are opened. My God!. We were kneeling, having embraced each other. I cleaned lips a bitter salty moisture from her eyes, from its cheeks, and for the first time for many days, weeks and months her face became such what was before my leaving: shining, light, with the eyes turned into the world, instead of in itself.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I Love You. And, Please, When I Do

I love you. And, please, when I do not tell it to you, when I do not write to you some days, do not hope that it can pass, go out, be dissolved in this life - far from you. Unless it is possible to become angry about me? At all is not present! What can be from me demand: I live in conditions absolutely unnatural, I do not care for you, I do not cherish. It that normal conditions for a life? This same if whom natatorial - on a land to throw out, flying - to any mole-badger in a mink to place? I love you. And you my sun. And still light in a window. And on you this world has converged a wedge. And still - that there still was? All the same I believe that to you - willows your human cares, and in mutual relations not with all mankind, and with concrete relatives, the droplet of my warmth would be not so superfluous, even - necessary. And I - from this, half-received. JA-not that person who is capable to amaze your imagination, to pull at once to itself (as it was at me - with you). But I have other advantage: I love you.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Not Taken Place Husband And The Man -

Not taken place husband and the man - to bear this brand on a life far is not simple, constant spells about a priority spiritual over the corporal help badly (and the wife you will not invite to meditate about it together with yourself.) Well, yes it is fine, it is my destiny and my cross if will drop out - I will bear it as to a smog and how many a smog, to myself for sympathy I do not search. But if thus know that after my Leaving at the wife possibilities to find the happiness will increase! Most likely on the contrary - household problems will double, loadings on education of children, etc. Well and as all will be reflected it in children will increase, you perfectly represent, I have understood it under the book. Personally to me one thought that I and my son we will live separately, is simply intolerable. Therefore I should make everything to keep a family while there are still sincere forces at me and while degree of alienation at the wife to me did not become insuperable. It is not necessary for me of huge pleasure (I agree in general nothing to have!), it is not necessary for me of the big inflow of forces for the morning (I agree from exhaustion and to creep in a lap for weariness!) But let I will have a possibility for repeated attempt to make the wife happy though time for a night! How many time minutes of despair and depression I re-read these pages and as strongly regretted that you have not written how it to reach! Probably, such pairs matrimonial as ours, much - it is bitter and it is insulting.

From The Book Of Jalan Chlana "Dao Of

From the book of Jalan Chlana "Dao of love" The maiden sits, thinks, for whom in marriage to go? "For young-single? There is at it no experience, it will be bad to me. For the widower? The wife has driven in, to me will be accepted, it will be bad to me. I Will go for the married: with the wife consults also to me it will be good". FAIRY TALE muzhiks of the Lord requests have absolutely worn out something to think up - absolutely-de their wives . The Lord also has thought up: tomorrow morning, speaks, bring to that old oak everyone the wife in the big bag. All right, all of them have gathered in the morning at an oak before. The Lord also speaks: hang out them on branches to whom where it is more convenient. Have hanged out. - now, - orders, revolve, and as I will slap hands together, run everyone to any bag which opposite to you, and take to itself. Clearly? - It is clear, - answer. - well, have gone. It turned them, turned, time! - in has slapped. All of them also have run at once everyone to the former.

Monday, October 27, 2008

. Well, Not To Annoy, Not To Cause Your

. Well, not to annoy, not to cause your protest, whether that. You know, and I all time of catching on feeling of fear. Perhaps it is all not that you very much have intimidated me (I I love you, you I love, Egor!), and from my sober view on itself and on the (my) acts: eternally me not there will bring, I am immemorial behind myself to fault I feel. - Probably, it is primordially Russian line cast in: "On the thief the cap burns", "the cat Feels, whose meat has eaten" etc. Your yesterday's phrase has simply touched me on work: "It is remembered, you wished to help me". Here it "is remembered" - is delightful! Comes such big, with a trunk, into this, well as it, a crockery bench, and tries there itself to conduct elegantly. It is not necessary to you of any introductions and transitions. To me - you should write so: "Urgently make." Also list that is urgent. It is possible to add: "Also do not take in head to tighten with it!" You understand what to be somehow useful to you is not my desire, it both the purpose, and sense and where, interestingly, elementary your guess while you question: whether I will disagree.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

. What For? - In My Soul All Has

. What for? - In my soul all has broken, and I have departed where to emptiness. - an incubator on deducing of blockheads potentially explosive device. It not for me. - Maxim not the blockhead!. - while - yes, but to it it becomes fast and it is irreversible under a wing of the brood hen convinced of the correctness. - you offend me? You any more do not love me? I tell a gospel-truth. Excuse, at me meeting, - and frequent short hooters in a tube. I have gone, up hill and down dale. No, it is incorrect: I have moved, as blind, anything before myself without seeing. I choked with insult, from its cruelty. Obviously, I spoke aloud because passers with astonishment looked back at me. I will not begin to tell about the subsequent life: it was illness, it is similar to heavy mental depression. A life? No, I did not wish to live, I only mechanically moved, carried out any functions and all time talked to Egor. No, I did not argue any more with it, I only asked it: how you could, such strong and correct so it is severe to manage with me? Unless my fault is so great, what I have deserved the death sentence? For certain, all the matter is that he has stopped loving me.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Has Got Used To Your Name. Freely I

Has got used to your name. Freely I utter it, easily. Somehow imperceptibly, I all good name your name. I do not name - and so: I will wake up, the first realised thought - you. I go out of doors, I get to the sun, heat - and the first that will flash - you. And so - in all. You - do not consider me for absolutely stupid, only I know, I feel that for a long time I - will not suffice. I not about that I will get tired or - will bother. Yes is not present. But after all and the limit any - too is. You know, I, probably, have a little bit calmed down, if you knew, understood, felt, represented - as I love you, as as. If you represented it - my stay somehow would be not absolutely . Only, probably, it is impossible: you - and other warehouse and - even a floor - and that of another! Today so it wanted to bury in your "Afghan" and to cry a little. You know, one it would suffice me also, then, can, and cry was ceased to want. If to you has risen me a little bit you are a pity also have thought that it is possible to unpick one sleeve and to present it, - me all the same, what: right or left.

Yes, I Know That In Certain Cases Doctors

Yes, I know that in certain cases doctors select and the effect from them is good. But we will try to consult at first by own strength. And now I will tell about such reception of increase and preservation of man's activity of which is not known by note sexologists, and it is a pity! These actions can carry out and he, but, the word of honour, to it will be pleasant yours or even the leading part. What is required? A bath which it enters nude, and a shower on a flexible hose. You include water so hot, how many it can suffer, and soar it it , cautiously holding with their hand, and within two-three minutes lead up them literally to dark red colour (cautiously, certainly: in this case abrupt, as they say, eggs to you to what!) Then you switch water on as much as possible cold and too, whenever possible, not less than two minutes it . When its patience comes to an end, take a rough terry towel and dry - is careful and strong - all its equipment pound: to full heat and even heat. There is more to come: you take cotton wool moistened or fir oil, you wring out it and slightly - slightly you rub with it .

Friday, October 24, 2008

It Can Be A Consequence Of Damage Of

It can be a consequence of damage of certain zones of a backbone etc., etc. Yes, at every fifth to whom "it nothing than", the reasons are covered in an organism, and there are quite authentic ways of their physical treatment. But four fifth?! At them all kidneys - of a stone are perfectly in order, and nevertheless. And after all four fifth are millions and millions men and, means, as much wretched, "not served" women! They because of what toil? Because of the basic difference between people and animals: Because of cerebral cortex presence. The stress for the person, including men, means in many respects other condition, than for a bull, for example. What for a male pig pork squeal or for a cock a chicken cackle? Only self-whose form of self-expression. And for the man? Rough word or tactless sneer and - ! - the girlfriend as an axe, to the friend, happens, and , and possibilities has chopped off. Does not understand that the man - it too the person, at it too much depends on a condition of nervous system, almost as at us.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

- The Poor Thing You Washing, Silly, -

- The poor thing you washing, silly, - only he also has sighed. - yours, only yours, - it is hardly audible I have answered. - already clever. - and, Maxim, give five! What there at you with a rope happens? Really from the frequent use the joint has become loose? - Has become loose, - Maksimka has smilingly agreed, hiding in his hand. There we also stood together, not in forces to come off from each other. My husband-happiness my come true, the best my half, and all my family. - and who wants gifts? - Egor has asked. - and can, here and there are no such interested persons? - Is, is! - has rolled up legs of Olja. - You - our main gift, - have quietly told I. - it is true, children? - It is true, - Maxim has very seriously agreed. - it is true, true! - Olechka has cried. - the Folder Egor, open faster a suitcase, and that I should go now for work to a garden. - well that, work-business sacred. Give all together we will open a suitcase. FROM EGOR . NOT THE FIELD TO PASS. Epigraphs to the head - Whether you are able to play the piano? - Did not try, but I think that I am able.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I Had To Cross By The Time Of

I had to cross by the time of our meeting vital trajectories not small number of the women generating fire in blood, other of them, for example, Darya, possessed rare beauty a fine-moulded figure, but that blow which I have received, having touched a waist Anastass, went, obviously, from radiation of its genetic substance closest to my nature, I think, from it. What to do: it would be desirable to look more thin concerning philharmonic concerts and to look more spiritually concerning motives to Anastass, but the truth is the truth, and only it will not bring and will not expose me that whom I actually am not. However then, when I more than ever strong became before on an anchor of sanguineous physical pleasure with this woman, transformation and my so-called inner world has begun. I can accurately formulate that for the first time in a life I, already old muzhik who is married-remarried before, has found in this union. First, for it there was my individuality, washing . Let's assume that on the qualities I - a typical camel.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Peasants Kept For A Communal Life And After

Peasants kept for a communal life and after reform of 1861 (to that there were many reasons) and, hence, family traditions both family hierarchy, and the general bases of relations "M" and in Russia owing to huge almost indestructible have reached abrupt revolutionary events of 1917 when all fell and all. Yes after all fell only from above. All it was no more, than ripples on a surface of oceanic thickness. Humanistic ideas of the great Russian literature and art on which we habitually define developed as if in all Russian society the advanced ethical standards, actually were the advanced views of extremely thin layer of spiritual elite, to broad masses practically relations not having. Yes, Aksinja Astakhov was able to love and feel not less strongly, than noblewoman Anna Karenina, but Grishka Melehov had no rights to protect Aksinju from a brutal beating of its lawful husband and owner Stepan, and the world was on Stepan's party! And if humanistic precepts and Pushkin and Lermontov, Tolstoy and Dostoevsky, Chekhov and Maxim Gorkogo's spiritual breaks were away from that enormous current which defined a real moral life real in ten and hundreds millions Russians what "influence" could render on it a rash which sometimes appeared here and there on fences cities? Certainly, it was possible in Vladimir, say, in 1918 to publish such decree:" Each unmarried woman, since 18-year-old age, appears property of the state and is obliged to be registered in Bureau of Free Love where men at the age from 19 till 50 years can choose to themselves the woman, irrespective of its desire ", but what it changed in a life and a life of national thicknesses? Certainly, it was possible to publish in the same 1918 in Kronstadt and to extend, for example, in Saratov and Vyatka" the Decree about cancellation of private possession by women "(item 1: Since March, 1st, 1918 the right of private possession is cancelled by the women who have reached of age from 17 till 32 years.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

It Much Later I Have Understood That Before

It much later I have understood that before distribution and a direction in any the filled column was necessary to it "is married", yes is not simple somehow, and occupied with the checked up most-rechecked wife of the best faultless communistic blood, from the most worthy and dear builders and defenders of socialist fatherland. In this heraldic sense could be more worthy than nothing than my parents: primordial workers, promoted workers in heroic years, gentlemen of many military and labour awards. There are no at me doubts that my simple-minded mother and its noble for a long time already have carried on secret wedding negotiations among themselves on a theme:" At you the goods, at us a merchant "- everyone from the hummock looking, also have come to the general mutually advantageous result, and the father of the future groom in arrangement have involved, because for this nomenclature general each member of a family should be educated a threefold X-ray. In a word, on biographical particulars I have approached, my photo as I have understood, has preliminary been approved, and here the future diplomat was ostensibly casually to carry out the extremely important political action.

Friday, October 17, 2008

. And Here: Praise To All Gods, Approved Anastas

. And here: praise to all gods, approved Anastas and in every possible way preserved this clear for me clear and vigorous morning spirit so necessary for me. And not only itself supported, but also children stimulated on kind and cheerful behaviour at breakfast, that is on a nervousness total absence. It is a small example but so was everywhere: it supported me. I can tell: if to me not to create sincere hindrances, in what succeeded my prewere, in a quiet condition I give out 100 % of the possibilities, but if me to support if sincerely to admire that at me really it turns out if to approve me these possibilities increase ! The usual man becomes the superman, if in it its woman trusts. It is a pity that it does not know the considerable majority of wives: their spiteful cuts that basic bough on which pride and a prosperity of their men keeps. To me it was very good in atmosphere of joyful constant psychological feed. With even it is very good and even it is awkward: say, not on a rank you take, the muzhik!.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Is Better To The Single Prostitute Would Go

Is better to the single prostitute would go or to the chippy-lover - for a while, than the novel heart-felt has begun, from which all it will be hard. you, mother washing, itself has decided to neglect Regular, joyful meetings, has missed reins from hands, here your stallion and has rushed if only not to appear, up hill and down dale, the gelding!. To 80 % of men of mature age in our fatherland are to some extent sick of a prostatitis! What does it become, forces heavenly? Woman's illiteracy leads to a national trouble, differently will not tell. I do not tell about extreme situations, for example, about long business trips, about last weeks pregnancy or about abstention at a great post - this business special. And that I will give of a word of one wise father. When the parishioner has asked it how to be, if to the husband already absolutely , that and look - will run to the cheerful neigbour, the father replied: "For the sake of a preservation of peace in a family, well, start up it to itself, and then come and confess.

Monday, October 13, 2008

No, Not Realising In Love - In Family

No, not realising in love - in family love - the person and leaves in a non-existence, without having learnt and a tiny part of those possibilities which in it have been put. Without having learnt and without having learnt them only because owing to wild and stupid tradition it built the home life "on a freebie". More precisely, it did not build, and has brought in the house something like a case or the TV, has established once and for all, on that the mission and has considered finished. And in practice only it is hard it and should begin!. More shortly, for those who wishes to save the time, at once I inform: the given book penetrated by aversion and even hatred to a freebie, will be a narration about necessary, always new, always to other matrimonial work demanding forces, time, inspiration that marriage has gone right. That also the person all became better, and that to other person was with it to live all better. That it has learnt that happiness which is really worthy. That his life has been lived with realisation of all its potential possibilities.

I Have Turned To It A Back, And

I have turned to it a back, and it under a blanket on the sly began to iron my shoulders, has started to reach a breast, to kiss a neck, then again has ignited and, having pulled out an intense member, has tried to put it somewhere between my feet, without risking already to tear off my shorts. Involuntarily I its back, to it, probably, became sick also it for the first time for all months of our acquaintance have raised on me a voice: - You that allow yourself? Eventually, I your lawful husband! - Here also address in court under the law. And I wish to sleep!. Matter of course, we by a breakfast had not the best. But parents and arrived would stay like noticed nothing. Tactful there were people. The next night he has sadly asked: - That to me to do Nastja? And I have again noticed: to me to do, instead of to us, Nastja, instead of Nastenka, and though love or admiration gramme, though a hint on how I am pleasant to it what I yes beautiful that he endlessly spoke to me earlier. Here such delay also was stretched before the most Leningrad wedding.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

But It Had A Concept That I Am

But it had a concept that I am a person with the affairs and duties to which should be helped. Yes, this "a little" plus sincere oppression from that harm which I created contrary to the nature, has decided our destiny. No special explanation at us existed. When the next time they with a daughter have arrived to us that all together and with my son to go for the weekend on rocks, and Darya has spread out the batch in kitchen, I have asked her daughter: - Svetochka, you will go to me in a daughter? - I will go, - she has answered, and chewing a pie. - and you me take in sonnies, Darya Antonovna? - Its my son has asked. - and you and so for a long time already my sonny, - by the way, between affairs she has told, pushing it through a table in an especially way, as a gear, the cut apple. - in general, we have sat up, make haste, the electric train will not wait. For the next day they have transported to us motley female stuff, and the day after tomorrow we have gone to the nearest school to write down in the sixth class Svetlana that was uneasy without a stamp about a residence permit.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Really: The Young Husband - Practically The Doctor

Really: the young husband - practically the doctor of sciences - with magnificent international prospects, impressive and representative two children at you - so keep for it hands and feet! Also has thrown it for the sake of the old man of humble origin almost for twenty years is more senior it, lean, not visible itself, almost below it (it is a slander!) At which all riches - the military man with traces after a demobilisation an epaulet!. And thus - the aunt clearly all from within is shone, that earlier was not exact, we from student's nails remember it. Fantastic tales, " ." I even was reached sung by wise men in a smoking-room by obscene lines from a vaudeville of the last century: "I Wish to be under the colonel, I wish to be under the colonel, under I wish to be the colonel". Chew, darlings, chew, sing, darlings, sing, and I recollect: somehow in the morning I from to the regular tram nevertheless was not in time to reach, it has left on my eyes. I also have waved hands running by the import car, without looking at "contingent", its occupying, very much it would not be desirable to receive a hook in the list.

What As A Result? To Move Further, Leaning

What as a result? To move further, leaning against similar hummocks to suicide similarly (whether the rain, whether snow, whether will be, whether is not present). Means, we will look for such hummocks, such points of support which allow to go into them confidently enough not only "in general", but also in particulars. Without particulars there is no true picture. We find the detailed grants in which the combination not only zodiacal signs and elements elements (Fire, the Earth, Air, Water), but also level of interaction of leaders at the moment of a birth of the person of planets (aspects) is considered. Let's add that this uneasy picture even more becomes complicated presence of red and black aspects (i.e. Positive and negative) and still becomes that positive aspects in other situations become disaster, and black can be useful. But there are also neutral (green) aspects, both latent positive, and latent negative aspects, and "strange" configurations of aspects etc., etc. the Similar differentiation allows to divide people of each zodiacal sign into four subtypes, almost in what not similar against each other.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

You Would Tell To Me That Will Suffice

You would tell to me that will suffice supposedly to you, Alja to be afraid, live - easy, anywhere I from you will not get to. Only do not become angry you that I - learn, that to tell. You know that I - do not encroach on it. I only can about such on New Year's Eve dream? And I love you. And you my sun. And to time - two o'clock in the morning that to me not to give a hand now, not to touch you, not to feel you a hand, lips. Everyone knows: hysterical people, daring to be dismissed, in "splashes", and carrying a pain in itself - do not maintain earlier. So - in the rescue - sometimes brawl. You can shout at me. Abuse, damn, only too - be discharged. I love you. Also I am afraid of this your pressure. I speak about work. But after all it so is obvious! My God you wash! And as to me has carried! Such happy dream! I come to you home - both you do not drive. Also you do not become angry. Also you embrace me! And you even it is good with me. Has woken up and afraid to move, that - not to frighten off this happiness in itself.

Monday, September 22, 2008

I To You Here Will Move. Hands At

I to you here will move. Hands at me grow, whence it is necessary, without business I will not remain. A family I will support. From such serious turn of a situation the nervous laughter has attacked me. I laugh, I can not stop: all has thought over! - and itself I reflect: and suddenly this that - live and present, not under regulations? Also I ask: - And how dear Nikolay, you need to drive here, without having belief in mine to you feelings? It has turned to me all breast, has hammered to me eyes into eyes as spears, and has easy uttered: - there Will be your feelings where it to disappear. I have smiled, have looked down and I ask: - Where have desired to stop? - At station. While. I have sighed and have asked: - That you, , do not treat the groom to tea?. And here my mother with Maksimkoj comes, fills a table with a tea set with rolls and jam, and all of us sit down round a white cloth in a family way. Also pours to itself Nikolay tea from a cup in a saucer and blows in it very quietly to cool, and drinks it without hurrying up, thriftily.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

My God, How Many Pleasures, Emotions And Delights

My God, how many pleasures, emotions and delights delivered it those trifles which we got before! And now it concerned even magnificent gifts most likely with indifferent curiosity. - Has gorged on, mother? Or ? - I when she easy having looked on brought by me for her a package somehow have in a fit of temper exclaimed, have put it aside and continued to be engaged in on kitchen the affairs. It without a smile and anger has looked at me and has shaken a head: - Is not present, Egor, not . Only what for to me all it? - As what for? After all it so is beautiful, so to you will go! - and what for? Itself think: after all I live, as the widow, at the live husband. - as the widow? - I was taken aback. - and where my husband? Where? Where? - It has lifted hands and has serially looked to itself of an armpit, then for a kitchen door. - will order to sit at home? - I. - and affairs by itself will become? - Affairs, - she has stretched an equal voice. - yes, it, of course, the most important thing in a life.

Certainly, To You Annoyingly That, Loving It, You

Certainly, to you annoyingly that, loving it, you prepare a breakfast, children collect, to news since morning by radio do not listen to allow to it to sleep. But after all all it is repeatedly compensated by its wonderful kind nature, wide coincidence of your sights at the world and people, yours , its readiness in all important questions to follow you and to support you. As to a subtlety of its perception and , considerably surpassing yours, its passions in the bed admiring you, its special knowledge causing your respect - all it also is fine resonant addition to kind general basis of a joint life. If to return to a gastronomic example as to a metaphor: start up at it there will be five favourite dishes from which three are quite comprehensible to me, and from my five - four quite to it to liking, it means that we will quite get on, I can be not worse, than at. A variant of all of five coinciding, and even even more interestingly. A trouble if at it, speaking in images, in valuable to a number of the five first places occupy such dishes any of which I and on spirit do not transfer.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Having Tried Sweet, You Will Not Want Bitter,

Having tried sweet, you will not want bitter, whether not so? I see, how the gifts Egor wishes to throw the gorge which suddenly has arisen between us, and gifts not the private soldiers expensive, even the magnificent. I also have pushed away him, have offended the most secret in its vanity, it has left then from us, and for a long time. I do not know, how I have endured this separation, but here it has returned, and the precipice between us has remained. Yes, I am guilty. But after all it is stronger than me, more cleverly, is more senior, more wisely! After all he how I suffer, how the house sees, yes unless to him it is good in this cold? No, it should turn all, after all it my husband, I for-husband, for the supporter, the defender, ! If it on it does not have forces, what for then to me all its another matters? I will live also itself, to anybody I will not be obliged, on anybody I will not begin to count! Or most this glacier to kindle, find forces, that its heart has thawn? I do not know, does not remain at me internal resources and how its heart you will warm up if it does not get out of business trips also the end to edge it is not present and it is not expected? My God, if you are, dissolve to Egor eyes on my trouble! I am taught already a good lesson by destiny enough.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

ANASTAS. Inspiration Why, Why?. Why Since Any Bad

ANASTAS. Inspiration Why, why?. Why since any bad day the life at us has gone ? Why on change of violent pleasure which could kindle all which could even create a miracle how when I the world have got out of a gangster limousine why on change to it, wonder-working, the melancholy has come, not leaving oppression on heart has come?. Earlier I home flied from everywhere where was, with impatience without choking almost. My eyes burnt, cheeks flared: just about now I will meet it, with my Egorushkoj, with my live breath, with love long-awaited, with a flame , with my happiness, with my man, with my wise husband and the fire lover who has opened for the first time to me me, with my ideal of the person which always arrived on honour and justice, now I will meet that my embodied dream about which to a meeting with it I even did not know, did not think!. So happens, why I began to come back home without hurrying up, any internal feeling , and houses too I do not live any more, and I exist? Why I as a mechanical doll potter with children, exactly, without a spark, I communicate with employees on chair and with students why I avoid meetings and conversations with parents whom all feel and, I know, take hard my condition?.

What Difference: After All If You With Me

What difference: after all if you with me "where" can be everything: both mountains, and caves, both desert, and a taiga, and anybody, and (near to you I unless will notice others!). No, one, perhaps, a condition: that there were no very beautiful women nearby. I you, naturally, somehow cannot present - nothing doing (as I can not present that to me - most! - it is possible to depart, refuse voluntary you). Therefore here so would like: that also business became, and I could be nearby with you. Actually, also it is the consolatory factor: we live on one continent with you. Would be worse, if I - here, and you somewhere in Australia. Has terribly carried! Yes? It seems, I have already forgotten that represented to you, it is so much in me is defined by you - without direct your "instructions". All in me and all out of me: both snow, and a wind, both the sun, and public transport, and any trifle, are perceived through you. Here - destruction probably, perhaps, only at chemical level: to dissolve me most, to destroy my connection of atoms.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

From The Treatise Of The Priest And Philosopher

From the treatise of the priest and philosopher Anatoly Zhurakavsky "Secret of love and sacrament of marriage" (Kiev, magazine "Christian thought", 1917, No 1). Lovely my woman, not too is a lot of in scales of a life of mind and forces it is necessary to put, that your friend, whether the husband, whether the lover, so to say, was capable. Create the world in his soul, regularly support its functional abilities, learn to clear up in it fire longing, and your spouse always will be as it should be as the mushroom in a brine, will not be gone, will not verminate. Both to it it is good, and to you it is nice. But here in what a problem of problems: that appearance of our sister, women, withers faster, than at representatives of the so-called stronger sex. And, you want you do not want, your time runs faster its time. Here there were you, for example, in the vital route early in the morning, equally young and beautiful, it even is more senior you, but by a dinner, lo and behold, you already and have overtaken it, look, as elder sister, and by a supper, pretty often, can already descend and for its mummy - with all from here following.

Naturally: The Woman Sits In A Cave Either

Naturally: the woman sits in a cave either in a hut, or in the lock, which time the pregnant woman, with a heap of children, and their survival practically entirely depends on activity and activity of its worker and . What from that, my darlings , what since then much water has flowed under the bridges, and we not only became quite independent of "owner-patron", but also in a sexual life we can give other hundred points forward? The psychology growing from the most ancient genes of leadership, anywhere has not got to! It is possible not to reckon on an iota with it, it is possible to break and humiliate it in word and deed as "patron" who rolls on a sofa in front of the TV while you plough at a plate, having got tired before that on work, such parasite would give like all grounds for jeer and neglect. But think of that bad public history which almost from families and has put half of fathers at a family wheel of women. Estimate also thought on that bad economy which has distracted men from schools and has everywhere put teachers our sister.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Both All Holidays, And All Cultural Campaigns, And

Both all holidays, and all cultural campaigns, and all were arranged when it seemed to it convenient. Practically always I have been compelled to alter all primary plans. By kindness sincere I believed that the debt of the loving man in that and consists to indulge desires of the woman, to indulge her. Yes I and now So think. But with one specification: the present spouses or originally carried away the friend the friend the man and the woman should indulge mutually to desires each other. Game in one collar now I know it authentically - an exact sign of sincere backwardness and an egocentrism. To put it briefly, those vague feelings about which I have told, and the whole lots of other reasons about which, maybe, still I will tell, have led to that once when I, from the next woman something absolutely unlike set phrases of the others, I as if at once about a concrete column was knocked and has understood that here, at last - that, me there was it. Darya was more senior those beauties that rotated round me, we were coevals, but its sports to become (climbers, , the mountain skier) allowed it to look younger than the young competitors.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Hence, Their These Or Those Physical, Sincere, Moral

Hence, their these or those physical, sincere, moral qualities which became accenting in a choice were looked through also! About My God to what the choice of these accents is whimsical! How to be with an invincible physiological inclination of the approximate chairman of collective farm Simeon Davidov to such alien to it by all social and moral principles to an element, how loose woman Lushka Nagulnova from "Newly ploughed virgin soil"? And how to be, if on all without an exception the person to you approaches parametres, yes here from a smell of a skin it you turns back? Not such it and a private question, excuse: eventually all history of our planet, in it the generalised kind, has moved because of this ostensibly the small reason absolutely other way! After all Adam's first wife, fiery Lilit, the smell of crude clay from which her spouse has been created madly irritated, and continuous quarrels and the conflicts have started to shake their family way, one is worse than another. It was necessary to the creator to create in situation correction for Adam other wife - from to the husband of a material.

That It Is Necessary To Me? You Understand,

That it is necessary to me? You understand, to arrive or arrive - anywhere (what difference!). And to carry out the dichajshe-impracticable desire: to put you on a curbstone at bed a water glass. Then - I can leave, after all I, can, and flied-went because of this glass. Me conscience because of your of that time, dozing: "And why you have not prepared water, at me at night the throat dries?" Clarifications, whether you understand, thirst. If you have seen this glass, maybe, you would understand, how I live with the dried up throat - without you. There is you, and there are I a little of that time "freedom drinks", and everything that without you, at my new ups and downs, same all - any awful absurd, any deceit, a dream. Not the dream is only when it is possible to touch you, when it is possible, without looking at all, to feel: you - are, you - here it. And generally I live so: and last minutes this day - with you, and the first - the following, and day all then - too. Anything and anything me does not take: Neither time, nor any "self-guarding" feelings.

Monday, September 1, 2008

I Love You. I Love You, Egor! I

I love you. I love you, Egor! I love. To me and it is sick for you, and it is awfully insulting that all good in me - by you, not for you, and my love - useless for you. And if?! I will buy lottery tickets and to play a sport lotto. I will win the car and I will save up very much many money. I will go somewhere to caucasus. I will find courageous mountaineers. I will give them the car and money. I will live in a lonely hut and all to look at road. And once! They!! Will ride!!! And through a saddle at them something will lie in black !!!! It they will steal you. And I will tell: "you Will live here the whole month. You can not in idleness - search for minerals". And they will shake the daggers: "Zarezhim!" And you will be frightened also month will live with me. Be not afraid, we will not die: they will bring to us meat, bread and wine. I love you, Egor! I love you. And can, and not it. Perhaps and another. So even it will be better. There is a hope to stay any time together. After all physicians in a dispensary if they still to eat, survey you will want once, well and on me they cry for a long time.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

So For The First Time I Have Appeared

So for the first time I have appeared before the man absolutely nude. Though and at hardly visible light of a night lamp, but nevertheless the naked. And it was absolutely bared - in all details. I stood about a bed and did not know what to do. - Means so. Is better, if you across a bed become back to me and will rest against it . Without objecting, I have obeyed and has appeared in a pose of a mare before reception of a stallion. I, Anastas, proud Artemis, the person, and suddenly - in a pose of a mare! He has busy asked me to dissolve feet more widely, and has begun to rummage the member in search of an input in my causal place. Whether has found, whether is not present, I do not know, it has sharply pressed, and the improbable pain has jerked from within all my body, has reduced a spasm a stomach bottom, has braided all and has responded the sharp needle which has pierced through heart. I was turned out, have jumped and without remembering myself, what lead from a shoulder to it have gone!.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

I Gesture Have Invited Him In A Drawing

I gesture have invited him in a drawing room, have flung the door open and the first has entered. It has proceeded for me, has inspected conditions, agrees has shaken a head to itself: all say both was, and remains. Villages also continued to be silent. I stood at a lintel, having crossed hands on a breast: - To bring to eat? To tea? - Sit down. I have sat down opposite to it. It has fixed in me the mad sight: - Well so I not the first day at your house . Saw already you. - that has not approached? He has kept silent, has then informed: - It was interesting to me to look, as you on a superwheelbarrow have driven. Goat, a shaft , colours cubic metre, where to us!. Here I also waited, as further all . - Well also what? - Waited, waited, has not waited. Has decided to learn on a place. - another matters are not present at you? - And is not present! - it has bent to me, drilling eyes. - there are no at me except you another matters. Any. You will follow me? - About My God, - I have sighed.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

- So Yours, Sasha, - I Have Reminded.

- So yours, Sasha, - I have reminded. On its smiling face the difficult scale of feelings was played: hardly it would like to open the co-ordinates. But, on the other hand it should estimate my full openness with it and conceal after that the site was barefaced : to it have told all cherished secrets, it have entered into a family, and it about presses close!. - Is not present at me now , - at last, it from itself(himself) has squeezed out. The corporate discipline has prevailed - so I have estimated its answer, and he has understood that I have understood it. It is a pity enough has smiled: - the Buzzing , May of the lady! Ardent greetings to your gorgeous sunshine. Till the best times. - Has turned and has disappeared. I think that for ever. Unfortunately, for its soul was still live for acts on conscience. When I have told all to Egor, he only has sighed and has sadly shaken a head: - My God, and how many still moths will fly on my bulb! He as in water looked, but if moths flied.

But Really It Is Valid So? And She

But really it is valid so? And she answered, as a true wise man: - You can be assured of it, Socrat. Take human ambition - you will be surprised its senselessness if you will not recollect that I to you have told, and will lose sight, as people with desire to do a loud name are afflicted, "that for eternal time to gain undying glory" for the sake of which they are ready to subject themselves still to the big dangers, than for the sake of the children, to spend money, to take down any burdens, to die, at last. At whom to be resolved from burden the body aspires, - it continued, address more to women and Erotu so serve, hoping a child-bearing to get immortality and happiness and to leave about itself memory for ever. Pregnant women spiritually - after all are also such, - it which are pregnant spiritually, and besides in has explained to a measure, than corporally, are pregnant that just the soul and should bear. And what it should bear? Reason and other virtues. All creators and those from handicraftsmen whom it is possible to name inventive happen their parents.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Hence, Power Information Communication Arises At Subconscious Level,

Hence, power information communication arises at subconscious level, at level of the centres regulating a rhythm of heart. But only whether hearts? Whether and so "the gastronomic" approach of English in the light of this data is ridiculous? And can be, the phenomenon of the found out synchronisation speaks , that is reception and processing of the general information from a uniform space source? But, probably, synchronisation and subconsciousness, and consciousness, and ?. Therefore let's sneer not too at a choice of the partner in life according to general views on such menu where eyes just right to run up. But, as a matter of fact, when I resulted numbers 30 �, 60 � and 120 �, I already directly have intruded in an adjacent theme: a companion choice it agree not to similarity, but addition. Addition is, forgive, addition, instead of full (or nearly so full) other filling of a bowl of personal interests. Base of values: sexual, public, material, emotional etc. certainly should coincide, - to differ, any part, let important, essential, but a part should be supplemented! Let's admit, you are a person of morning action, a lark, and the spouse your owl and has possibility to rise after you.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

And It Is More Than Anything. Whether Yes

And it is more than anything. Whether yes words were necessary here? Here after all the married couple of wolves which was described somehow by F.Moet, and at all spoke nothing, relations did not find out, and however happily they lived! Yes, I wished to be the fine officer wife and it at me turned out. The main thing that at it has arisen and the feeling of the house, that fortress, where it among the people undividedly betrayed to it has got stronger. Where at the person the feeling of loneliness where it can communicate with with whom to communicate easily and joyfully disappears. Where it is protected by that love it. Whether not enough literature is published for the aid to those who wishes to construct a successful family? It is a lot of, but I am not assured that many use councils of these clever books. I - used. "The nobility where to fall, straws to spread" it would be known for a long time, whether yes all spread? Has read, for example, that to spouses is useful to hold mutual testing: everyone most of all appreciates what qualities in each other and what, believes, in it the spouse more appreciates.

You Will Take Your Hand, You Will Nestle

You will take your hand, you will nestle on it the person. It seems, and it is already possible to live further. When I simply grieve, I go on kitchen and when I very much grieve - I somehow, without gathering, it appear in a hairdressing salon and I am cut. Probably, it is an atavism - the residual phenomenon from custom from a grief to tear the hair. Not only that to me them it is short , so after all also slices, roughly. Well I do not sleep in any way at the nights. Now I lay down early - in the first to hour, and per two, three I wake up and I lie till the morning. Perhaps it is a high time - to start to accept drugs? I - not from a sleeplessness: here - one hindrance, one illness melancholy about you, bent for to you, dependence on you, well, and further, on all cases: you, you, about you, without you, with you. With what it is better to begin that in general now use the despaired: hashish? Marihuana? Anyway, all the same it is possible to live, only leaving in physical activities.

Monday, August 18, 2008

But We Have Achieved It. And Svetochka Has

But we have achieved it. And Svetochka has asked me: - Uncle Egor and why Dimka names you the daddy and on you, and mum says, what it is impossible for me? - Why it is impossible? - I have objected, Only and it is possible. So I have found not only the wife, but also a daughter. Our life as in Noevom an ark also has begun to flow: two adults in one bed, the teenager-son on a bed in other corner and a daughter with ears-zvukouloviteljami on a sliding armchair between them. And My God you wash just, how many problems - household and - have arisen at once, and all should be solved them! Other of them should make laugh: here Svetochka has begun to argue with the sworn brother that the toilet seat in a lavatory should be held lowered because to women so it is more convenient, on what Dima reasonably answered that in the lifted condition it is more convenient for men, and much-much got used, ground and settled. Cheerfully we lived. Somehow Darya, without sparing itself, has brought a water-melon in size about globe and weight in twelve kgs.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Yes, Three "To" (Kinder-Kirche-Kuche) Have Been Still Embroidered

Yes, three "To" (Kinder-Kirche-Kuche) have been still embroidered on a flagstaff of the decent wife of the burgher, but in case of sad widowhood the mistress of a small house (either the lock, or factory, or the concern) did not appear any more an extra mouth to feed in another's family: it personally became the proprietress of the property. And though still corrected ball and for metal (not only gold) first of all men, the property right to own economy, to own business and - on own person! - extended and on women more and more. And in Russia there were owners, empresses or landowners, but it were the people making insignificant shares of percent from a lump of the population. Then, when there were freedom-loving nihilists or , given to the native land and the world of such giants of individual spirit as, for example, Sofia Perovskaja or Sofia Kovalevskaja, or Elena Blavatskaya, their number was extremely insignificant, and destinies, as a rule, are dramatic or even are tragic, for was not typed their such quantity which was capable to change the relation to them qualitatively.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Men To Me, As Flies On Honey: I

Men to me, as flies on honey: I have really considerably got prettier after the delivery, it marked all. The maiden sharpness of movements has disappeared, forms of a body irrespective of my spirit exhaled at each movement significant temptations, judging by the burning or surprised eyes of passers. I went through sights as naked, but it did not anger: yes, to me is what to show, look, rejoice, it is not a pity. Again other steels to me in plain terms to offer the services, and others - a hand and heart. And so, there was at us on chair teacher Oleg who has recently become staid, presented on the senior lecturer. There were to it thirty years and it, as they say, "has sat up in maids". That is with conviction dangled in a barchelor condition because a lot of time has given to a science and the dissertation. Loved it pleasant baritone to sing Mark Bernes's ancient song, God knows, where and when he has learnt it: Loved girls and us, But we, falling in love, did not love, for Something waited each time And here one we sit now! And especially impressively he sang: To us every year All is more necessary to Find more difficultly Also all the girlfriend.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

As It Has Arrived And For Liquidation Of

As it has arrived and for liquidation of the becoming ripe family conflict. - Ninochka, - he has asked me somehow next morning after not the most successful our night when as a result of mutual misunderstanding all at us has gone, as they say, , - Ninochka, tell to me, you know yourself enough? It seems, yes. - And I more or less represent myself. Here also give with you we will disperse on the different parties of a table yes we take on a leaflet of a pure white paper, yes we will write everyone with all possible frankness that he in bed loves. Yes well to put preference points. And then we will compare texts and we will necessarily develop strategy of our joint actions. Ah, I think, the mathematician! Ah, I think, the theorist! And itself I speak: - the Friend you my scientist, first, somehow are awkward to write me such here words, and, secondly, today I like one positions, and tomorrow - at all others. Unless on all life it is business you will plan? - About unprintable expressions, answers, - it is possible to accept language quite scientific or conditional, only for us with you clear, and about your variability - business nice, it to me very much even to liking, but give we will understand with your tastes for today, for (it has looked at hours) nine mornings.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

We, Relatives, Have Taken Off For Accident Area:

We, relatives, have taken off for accident area: commands of rescuers anywhere have found nothing, neither tent, nor a backpack. And its uncommon life in which were has ended, I hope, and the happiness moments. But I knew that it then would not go to any mountains, if houses all was excellent. And it was not excellent that I am a man - once could not understand a subtlety and complexity of female psychology, there was no that has not managed to result the young favourite wife in a separate room. Whether it is necessary for me on to Tomilu to expostulate, which from greed has taken away from me then apartment? God has punished it, has spoilt, it the punishment both for it, and has received for many other things. But also I have received! Only I was is guilty volume that Darya, unique, but the fragile woman then has broken forever. And here - me has passed for half a century, children have scattered, the wife was lost terrible death, and I, the old splinter demobilised from army, removed from a trade to which has given all conscious life, remained one , a stub a stub.

. - Believe To Me, The Brother: I Do

. - Believe to me, the brother: I do not consider, I do not feel the man. The part of my body is buried, Ahillu assimilating me is no time. "Kirkeja - Polienu - greetings. I speak to you, the young man, be afraid of a paralysis. I never met so dangerous patient. Really, you are already half-dead!. But all the same: though you also have put me a great insult, I will not refuse to the sufferer a medicine. Be healthy, if you can ". Having convinced that I have read all these mockeries, Hrisida has told to me: It can happen with everyone, especially in our city where women are capable also the moon from the sky. To reduce. After all and it is possible to recover from it. Answer only more tenderly to my madam and sincerity of feeling try to return its arrangement. After all, to tell the truth, since then, as you have offended it, it out of yourself. "Polien - Kirkee - greetings. . You Will want my death, I will come with own ; if you will be content with castigation - I naked will come running to the sovereign.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

And Here Who In What Is Ready: Larissa

And here who in what is ready: Larissa Gubin, having pushed aside by means of the working capacity and charm of men of translators, left on the most advanced boundaries of possible self-maintenance for the working woman. The geologist Wearied, Egor's first wife, having comprehended that - - it is obviously not enough salary of the husband on its appetites, prudently and has safely advanced to the attack on the party and educational heads of the institute and as a result has reached considerable growth of a material prosperity. At the same time huge comprehensive inertia of a traditional, thousand-year current which carry to primitive morals, continued and continues to influence even that has twirled in new waves. And Larissa Gubin with hatred, abusive words, responds about the free emancipated life-byte, and Wearied, as - that is prompt from the attractive vigorous woman addressed in the goggle-eyed choking thick old woman, have hardly appeared are happy in the female destiny. Thus stay in a zone of it of planetary scales of whirlpool creates a condition of severe disharmony for those whom it twists.

And Vital Necessity For Marriage To Make Successors-men

And vital necessity for marriage to make successors-men (for the rural earth belonged not to separate proprietors, and a community which allocated plots to a family to proportionally number in it married men) was the main force. In the XIX-th century beginning Russian rural family totaled twenty five - thirty persons living under the general shelter! By the XIX-th century end, the truth, all there was a process of allocation of sons in independent economy more considerably, and the court yard totaled already six-eight persons. Differently speaking, marriage for the overwhelming majority of country Russia showed a unique way to the communal earths in structure of its family, that is to a basis of material maintenance of the life. In this structure the husband - the owner a plot was that central star round which all other members of household, including the wife naturally rotated. We will pay attention that in Russian "husband" means a word simultaneously and the man ("have gathered for council"), and the spouse.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Ridiculously, Aha? At Me Requirement - To Explain:

Ridiculously, aha? At me requirement - to explain: ridiculously not that it it is thin feels, and that it mark as a lack. About myself I tell it, not about Frenka. I have understood now so clearly, whence there was this version: about an edge Adam's. Very authentically ancient have transferred this dependence of one person - women - from another - men. Smile to me! And that to me should be altered - forty eighth on any not the - far. And the machine does not work. It is necessary to sew simply needle, all hands ! And women our all stick: on what diet I sit? As if I sit on it! Here now I with interest think about "going to a better world". Which under own initiative. (Yes is not present, you do not count me for absolutely silly is I not as blackmail any there and not on a subject tears. I not silly at you. Often - even on the contrary). Simply, I here as if have entered into their house, I look round, and - so all is clear, even is close. Egoists awful, aha? So it is simple: took - and is not present either you, or your torments, either favourite, or adored.

Friday, July 18, 2008

- Have Gone. - It Has Turned A

- have gone. - it has turned a key, has pressed a pedal. We have softly driven forward. - here. - I will wait. Having nodded, I have run in at a glass door. To leave through a back exit it was not meaningful: Sasha knew, where I work, and not that was a situation to show fear. Yes, but to carry it also to the house?. The thought has flashed: whether yes I can Olechku put on trial? These people are capable of everything. - But I have driven away it at once that also shade of fear not to generate, in view of a serious spirit of Sashi on my radiation. We left with Olechkoj glass doors, it skipping moved a hand in my hand. left the car which was to it hardly to a belt. "Yes, the invoice!" - it was thought to me. It took the child for sides and has lifted above the head. - Oh, - it was pulled out at me. - mummy, be not afraid, what you small! above legs my beauty. - the uncle, still, still! has obviously become puzzled, though has not given a sign. Apparently, the meeting developed at all under that scenario that it has carefully thought over.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Here And Has Passed Fifty Years In The

Here and has passed fifty years in the open air. - Tell, how you managed to live with the husband fifty years without uniform quarrel? - About, it is very simple! When we have sat down with it on a cart to go and register the marriage in the mayoralty, the horse has stumbled. The husband has told: "Time". On wood road she has stumbled once again about any root. The husband has told: "Two". About the mayoralty she has stumbled the third time. He has told: "Three!" - has taken out a pistol and has shot down it. "About My God!" - I have exclaimed. "Time", - has told it. Since then we never argued. To leave from each other in the conditions of a spaceship there is no place. And good relations depend not only on psychological compatibility, but also from individual qualities of the person. Remarkable results are brought, say, by patience, endurance. There can be not settlement situations, delays with receipt of the necessary information, there can be even errors in partner actions, but always it is necessary to be able to restrain, not to show irritations which can be transferred to your partner and only worsen business.

My Aspiration To Make All From Me Depending

My aspiration to make all from me depending humanly can be understood. Yours faithfully to you and hope - (the Surname, a name, a patronymic). S. I put an envelope with a return address of the friend, but on the surname. Are possible both moving on new apartment, and my leaving in a barchelor hostel, and I do not want, that your answer has got lost. And from the wife while all I keep a secret, to it superfluous excitements to what. Just in case I inform the personal address. Endurance only from one letter sent to the author "Three whales of health" I do not know, how these author's epigraphs before my narration from the point of view of a pure art look. My fourth husband, the director loved a word " ", it used it everywhere, even in bed so he, likely, would consider these forestallings tightened. - but if with business positions to judge, these eternal emotions arising in the absence of man's force then all is true. And earlier people, men and women, suffered, if faced its lack, and now many are ready literally on everything, up to an incest (incest) to go if only to find physical readiness to make high-grade sexual intercourse.

I Will Express Here While : Owing To

I will express here while : owing to geographical conditions, on historical circumstances, thanks to immensely spread our spaces it was necessary together both to be protected, and to build the cities, and to manage. The way which has developed here of the world, a community, collective, a powerful cathedral system of thinking in strong and in the weaknesses and displays essentially differed from neighbouring countries - and from east from them , and from western with their small scales. The tolstennyj layer of national history rises behind a salty Russian saying: "To the fair widow from each husband - the seventh share". In Europe there was a situation where the life and prosperity of each separate person substantially depended on its personal, individual efforts, from (flexibility) of behaviour. And as family relations, family morals, family aspirations an essence the reduced mould from the general morals of a dominating world order as construction of a family, relations "M" and, differed at us rather considerably that dominated there.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

To Me It Came After Work Hungry, And

To me it came after work hungry, and I began to ask him at once yes to it to make up. Here it also started to blow up from each trifle! Is not present, it is impossible to forget Russian saying:" Give to drink, feed, in , and then and extort ". And when the same my approaches I carried out with Volodej then though cords from it twist though a spoon sup. And after all could go by the way of ambitions, tears, mutual reproaches, what good would leave? And Mark was at me : to it has been by nature counter-indicative to make fast decisions. And if I wished to descend with it in theatre then for a week - days ten before it was necessary to start conversation on what it the clear head as regularly supports and raises my cultural level that, eventually, he has apprehended idea as the. And then I did not miss a case accidentally to praise its initiative thanks to which we have received such pleasure, and my friend slowly but surely , sometimes reached such feat, as independently bought tickets!.

Here So In Love And The World, In

Here so in love and the world, in joint works I also wished to live with it in happiness and without conflicts till the end of the days. But there is a world ideal which we build in dreams, and there is a world real. The person the imperfect reason assumes, and God has omniscient, knowing one thousand reasons!. Even on a desert island at Robinzona with Friday not all turned out smoothly what to speak about a city in which any of us faces tens and hundreds people, and at each of them - own interest and an own scale of values which just and does not coincide with yours. And, maybe, even runs counter to your installations, plans and desires. The first call from this the world to which no business existed to my plans and dreams - and a call not weak! - I have received shortly after young men of a pleasant exterior delivered me to an entrance of my institute on a magnificent car. I as always have headlong jumped out after the fourth academic pair, again expecting a sour explanation with Olinoj the teacher, and have run to a tram stop.

Friday, July 11, 2008

The Basic Zone Of Influence Is The Husband

The basic zone of influence is the husband and a point upwards from it on a palm-two along a backbone. Further it is very important the prickly platen between a navel and a bone: up and down. Then it is necessary to press through fingers a zone between back pass and . The kind wife its soft compression finishes preparation of the tired husband: it is so much times, how old is he, it is possible at once, and it is possible fractionally, alternating to other influences and caresses. Further, how the kind wife-mistress can increase an exit of useful production from such specific pet whom her spouse is? Correctly, feeding it the specific forages raising man's possibilities. These forages should be a natural origin for those grasses, fruits, backs, vegetables etc. about which I now will tell, have already taken place multithousand-year approbation. As to chemistry its influence can appear unpredictable. So-called energizers operate on one people depressing, in others - cause excitation. Whether but, first, for a long time? And, secondly, who knows, what will be a by-effect: it is good, if business is limited, say, to a proof lock, and if also sharp pressure differences? And moreover, can strengthen, but to accelerate: has touched - and it is ready.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

And If Not In The To Hold, And

And if not in the to hold, and to your hands to be given! Sometimes to you I arrive. I come at night, I sit down on a floor about you and I look. Sometimes a hand on a cheek I will spend. With head lips I will concern. Sometimes - I become impudent absolutely: I take your hand, be afraid about it the person. All I die of love to you - yes I will not die in any way. . Such at me unhealthy interest to men, which, as to you, under fifty. In public transport - I peer so : and what it for the people how he feels how is to it? Here at it too two ears and a nose - in the middle of the person. As at you. But anybody so does not love it, as I you. You know, what you told, all it somehow - by, you cause me to yourself, and I do not hear words, only I see that it you, I hear you, without listening, I take yours " ", I see your handwriting, I press alone these leaflets to the person, in them, as in your hand, whole. You know, Egor when you nearby work for me only one alarm system, and the second is disconnected completely.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

What Here Concentration? Then Rigidly He Tried To

What here concentration? Then rigidly he tried to inspire that in the course of thinking it cannot be distracted: all the same, as surgeon during the moment operations. On it it set reasonable, from its point of view, a question: then why he allows to call to it to employees including to ladies, means it it is possible to distract you, and it is impossible for me?. He explained that they call only on business and only during certain time. It passed even to that level of explanations that if-de cannot work in silence and concentration they will have nothing to eat. All the same helped nothing. So in not which peak of decisions of a puzzling problem which mathematicians of all world try to split almost two centuries when the formula hung already just about as a drop, on a tip of its feather, he told frostily, the spouse with the requirement to adjust a lining in the kitchen water crane, and in general has rushed: there is at it a muzhik in the house or it should turn all time one?. . Here then he has felt for the first time those sensations in a stomach which have led then to an ulcer, and then and to its perforation, and then and to.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Well, Besides. This - The Pebble On A

Well, besides. this - the pebble on a hill went. My God, what is the time , and Sizify - are not translated, all we drag these stones, we roll!. In me "three loves" to you co-exist: I wish to help you, I pine without you, I am anxious for you! And nearby - eternal, constant: as it is ridiculous, responsibility, and - for a second not doubted - readiness to block itself, to protect, support is parent. And still: to such, different, such relatives the person only the wife, probably, can feel, perceive. And to feel it protection - only the daughter. Here such I at you also am one in three persons. . Your woman. Here that always all : love washing there is only in words, a such "paper" love. All by you, all from an oven - in steppe. It is so much both forces, and tendernesses, and it is a lot of who knows and - necessary to you! - and vanishes "not claimed", non-realised, not used. Well you know that I am, so it as compared I could give to you! Neither to warm, nor to help - neither a hand, nor a shoulder.

Friday, July 4, 2008

That Is After Full Carelessness I Have Tested

That is after full carelessness I have tested transition to full . And the life already as I believed, has moved from a hill, from fair, to pension. Now about other points of the questionnaire: in the senior classes of school we have converged with mine Tomiloj. Bright there was a girl, initiative, everywhere wished to be the first. In a word:" Both to live hurries up, and hastens to feel "is about it it has been told. Rather ineptly we each other after mad caresses - seventeen years . In institute have arrived together, it has even more pull together us and when took me in army for anybody was not a secret that we the groom and the bride. Wedding have played, when I finished the Courses, and in twenty two years it has already brought to me the son-first-born, and we began to live-live four together in a small room. Why four together? Yes because have solved in no event the terminations of institute by it not to postpone and took to itself the young nurse-little girl. The room was the Petrovsky construction, five metres of height, have built over an input the second floor at height of three metres as a matter of fact, plank beds.

In These Circumstances To Preserve The Peace, It

In these circumstances to preserve the peace, it was necessary to operate with all world. Different values of this word differed with a vowel sound tracing earlier, but were said equally! And at all thus in this wide channel also strong bright sonorous streams of individual love, - feelings since ancient times proceeded, I would tell, not less celebratory and strong, than expressed in immortal creations of poets, prose writers and playwrights of the East and the West. Important that firm certificates of similar feelings in different social strata of an Old Russian society and different cities have remained. On the roll of XIII century found in Novgorod in the sixties of our century, we read strong in the an artless recognition: "From Nikita to Uljanitse. Follow me. I want you, and you me. And on that witness Ignat". And in the same XIII century, this time in Murom, in 1228 princess Fevronija, in a monkhood of Evfrosinja, and her spouse prince Murom Peter Georgievich, in a monkhood David has died.

Can Be And Other Forms Of Noble Civilised

Can be and other forms of noble civilised finding-out of the rights and duties yours faithfully to yours and its features. THE AUTHOR'S ABSTRACT HOW TO FIND THE COMPLETING HALF? Epigraphs to the head So, each of us is a half of the person, two parts and consequently everyone searches always for a half corresponding to it. Thus, as love is called thirst of integrity and aspiration to it. Before, I repeat, we were something uniform, and now because of our injustice, we are lodged by god separately, as with . Exists, means, danger that if we will not be respectful to gods, us once again and then we will assimilate not that to convex gravestone images which are as though sawn along a nose, not that to badges of mutual hospitality. From "the Selected dialogues" Platon - I think, very bright women are harmful to the man. It is a little pepper - it is very good, but when with its spoons eat. The Tigress it is fine. But here calculation is important: whether it is good for washing? - Well here, what prose: washing, a dinner, cleaning.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Forces On New Attempt If Appeared, After Such

Forces on new attempt if appeared, after such time when it could not be considered repeated any more and lost any meaning for the wife - to see, the age and the transferred illnesses affects. The wife completely was undeceived, reluctantly goes on contacts, now and it has got neurosises, there were problems with health. For me the intimate life has turned to torture. Two years I go on sexopathologists and while all is ineffectual, mutual pleasure - very rare visitor on our matrimonial bed. And what moods on it usually reign, it would not be desirable to describe. A huge sense of guilt before the beloved for its ruined health, for its not taken place family happiness I feel every minute. Struggle against depressions takes away many forces. What atmosphere in a family - to guess not difficult. Has risen and, basically, the question on divorce is dealt with. Constrains age of children, unresolved household questions (room). To leave a family, instead of the normal father to become the telefonno-Sunday daddy, to lose the beloved and thus to know that on creation of other family (if it will not be possible to keep this is that I above all do not want) you also have no right (what for if you can not give to the woman that should according to the biological nature) is still it is necessary to endure.

Monday, June 30, 2008

. Forces Of Two Floors Use Equal Freedom So

. Forces of two floors use equal freedom so they can be considered as two salutary elements from which hands the nature accepts the higher perfection. They justify the high appointment only when their activity harmoniously merges together, and the warm propensity approaching them to each other, is called as love. Endurance from Wilhelm's composition Humboldt's background "About distinction between floors and its influence on the organic nature" ( . XIX century) You with a smile me embrace whisky Young wines Adequately Aburadzutsu taste bitter only old wine Hips tremble the camp Twilight insinuatingly Shudders Enter each other Heart just about will be broken off Whether over the body you Lose last power to Bridle a thunder-storm If a lightning Wishes to throw? Shiver Green eyelids night in clouds that I have not stated More strongly that has told Spreads From meeting erotic old Japanese tank Ruboko Sho (X century) THE WARNING FROM THE AUTHOR There is no number to letters which came and come after the book "Three whales of health" has been published at first in magazine "Ural Mountains", and then printed by several different publishing houses.

Friday, June 27, 2008

And This Has Arisen Then, - I Know

And this has arisen then, - I know well, when the former spouse over and over again blew up and humiliated its vanity, offended its feeling of man's advantage. Sad and ridiculous there was this history of its former home life: when children of its steel to live independent families, it, the widower, has converged with the kind and economic woman. Yes here in what there was a trouble: three days in a week it as the leading expert of theoretical sector as the corresponding member had possibility to work houses. It would Seem: great happiness, sit in the office, create, invent, try!. On the contrary: for its wife who have yearned on dialogue it in the house appeared all the same that the unemployed or, even worse, the girl-friend for incessant chatter and an exchange of opinions-judgements on all questions of a swift-flowing life. At first he softly explained to it that its office - the taboo, and time is inviolable, because the main thing for it in an operating time is a concentration. On it it, taking offence, asked: can be, he has already stopped loving it? It was necessary to go, console it.