Thursday, February 14, 2008

Now I Had A Small Bear Cub Maxim,

Now I had a small bear cub Maxim, and the happiness I saw in another way - according to deep currents of a real life and a human nature. What would bring to me on instrument making? It would mean obstinate advancement forward but road false For me as it has appeared, values. I underline: for me because for someone another both instrument making, and a visible post in Institute or the Ministry, and necessity constantly to be - for the sake of respect for - on the advanced boundary of the science, - all it would be its native life. And for me it has appeared cousin. Work end - yes, the candidate salary - yes. But what should be a life, native for me, I plainly could not understand, and having thought, have accepted to go for the blessing while to correspondence postgraduate study and on teaching half-rates, attentively to look round, the blessing the need while did not knock on doors. The father has disappointedly grunted, because from its fair point of view any postponed showed a show of ruined time and resources, but especially to object me did not become, as there was nothing to cover to it my argument about obvious inexpediency of end of already obsolete objects.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

What This Grief Was For Me, What Insult

What this grief was for me, what insult on destiny for so senseless and premature leaving from a life of such fine person!. Those wives who do not understand the main thing in psychology of the husbands which with rectilinear force try to confirm only the, for me - not only silly and malicious , prematurely growing old, but to a certain extent and personal my enemies. More shortly: you wish to live with the husband in pleasure and the consent, - respect its man's nature. And itself will be young and beautiful, and it will save up and will increase greatly the forces. Try, train! Well, and if unbearable to you with it if has largely made the wrong choice leave, without spending energy for negative emotions, they age you simply at all in the face of. It is not necessary quarrels and shouts, try first of all a method of a mutual regulation, on to the sample. Suggest to develop the mutual convention: you understand, for example, that it should lie hours under the car, but let will specify and piously carries out of such and such obligations to you and a family.

Monday, February 11, 2008

- I Very Much, Very Much Wish Your

- I very much, very much wish your of good luck, - hoarsely, any not the voice at last, I have said. I understood that I leave it for ever, forever, that I any more will not see it-kog-yes! - Egorushka! Yes what to me without you happiness? - She has cried. Farewell, - I have said in low tones and have hanged up on the lever. What could I answer it of another?. I will not begin to tell neither about the state of health, nor about furore which has made for the next day my message on destiny of Alevtiny in firm. My business was " ", to be closed, achieve oblivion, to supersede from heart, from memory everything that has been connected with Alevtinoj: for the sake of the possibility to live. Here not a place to narrate about change in our industrial affairs, about the official messages, concerning Mrs. Berhstgaden. I will mention only its two letters, and with wide intervals to me sent with casual opportunities. Here fragments from them: It is awfully awkward to send the letter for work but how to you to reach? I after all and so - I write the second time of all for these nine months.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

And At Once I Specify: These Relations Can

And at once I specify: these relations can be pledge of a joyful long life, but they can become the reason of a grief, sufferings and a premature old age. So, it is necessary to understand features of beneficial interactions of system "?-?". I practise as the doctor already more half a century. Through my hands have passed thousand and ten thousand concrete suffering or happy women with their case records and their stories of private life. Through me have passed already different generations with their difference in sights and living conditions, have passed women of the different geographical countries and widths because where only it was possible to me to work, more shortly, have passed women of absolutely different conditions of dwelling. At least that to tell that it was necessary to me and in system a Gulag to work, where I have rung out after the third husband: not with those, you see military leaders it as it has appeared, has been embodied in the general photo made on army gathering in 1936.