Thursday, June 5, 2008

Today Was In Wood And Has Absolutely Lost

Today was in wood and has absolutely lost the way. Only for some minutes the sun has flashed, and then - and is dark, and snow has tumbled down. Also it was disturbing. But day was remembered with this ray. Certainly, I live difficultly, alone, it is closed, . Only after all such suddenly you will feel gratitude to destiny, a life for you so it you will feel! And it is called - happiness. Aha? Sometimes a dream. Then you are afraid to move - not to frighten off it in yourself, not to spill. Or - at constant stay with you - blow of any irreal force will pierce this feeling: My God, as I love you! You know, I should not meet you that in myself love: the object for the appendix of such forces was at me - already since seventeen my years. Such there was a situation, such combination at us individual qualities that all these years could not undermine in it something, in me to decolour. I have not casually gone to it when to me became so badly: I knew that this strongest of all existing means - for me.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

And In Me Constantly Such Vicious Yes Not

And in me constantly such vicious yes not desire - necessity! - the person, lips to drop serially to each your part, from a head to toes. So - . Sense, whether you understand, lives - in it. Ridiculously, aha? Already to tears. FROM - TO EGOR The letter only on literary themes, with comments, with introduction epigraphs, with prose, verses and with the romances composed by the correspondent independently and devoted addressee Epigraphs "Sometimes it would be desirable to shout, yes good education does not allow". ("Travel of laymans") "Having met , do not ask to borrow from it a hairdress". (The Vietnamese proverb) "The dog wished to eat a little bit because was live". (A.Ivanov) Prose Reading V.Sidorov "Seven days in the Himalayas": "In struggle with itself(himself) still anybody and never found rescue. For go forward only confirming, but without denying". Well! I with myself also do not struggle, aha! ". Break growing partitions conditional between you and people. It is necessary to open all the best in itself and to pass in a temple of heart of another.

Glasses Have Rung Out, Was Distributed Loud "Ur!"

Glasses have rung out, was distributed loud "Ur!" And here at all under the scenario in a room children torn apart by relentless curiosity have become hollow! - Olja! Maxim! And well back, to ! - I (has specially asked mum to come to help me this day) have exclaimed. - Anything mother, anything, everything is all right, - Egor, and both young heroes has objected, having scented a weak point in our defence, have slipped to it and were immediately set up at it in a lap, having caused laughter and approval of visitors. And I should think during this instant: very well all of them looked at a uniform family plate! How much the life with its impromptus is more talented, as the playwright, than we. To put it briefly, this evening has gone right wonderfully well though other of visitors have obviously touched hot by its end. Leaving, each of them not only kissed Egor, but strove to kiss handles and cheeks at me, and I think, no, I know that Egor's authority as the person and the head in their eyes has found new and very important aspects for all of them.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Egor Has Given These Letters To Me. It

Egor has given these letters to me. It is a lot of them - a thick package of the leaves which have been used up by small letters. Almost I have marked off in them separate paragraphs only to hint, show, through what inconceivable tests it was possible to pass to prototypes of this narration, what tests pretty often fall to a lot of almost each of us. So, it is better to see once, than hundred times to hear. What for to the poor girl from vineyards wisdom if she loves Solomona? And what for Solomonu its wisdom if she loves it? I love you. I think that it is my "charter of immunity". This year has re-read early Mayakovsky. At it is: the love is heart of everything, without it - the life (approximately) stops. I you - love. And consequently I live. So was, so is. While I live - I love. And in they be all: meaning of the life of mine, and my sun. I love. Also it is religious believing, under fight of a New Year's chiming clock I will whisper the prayer - in your name. And to think - of you.

Is Better You Would Make Friends With Me,

Is better you would make friends with me, and that I - am on friendly terms with you, and you and do not know it. Whether you read any about two English dogs and a cat how they were thrown by the owner and have left, and they have passed almost all country to return to it? It is a shame with the love: for some reason recently on the first place it was put out, having removed the beginning spiritual, intellectual, absolutely other - very ancient, shaggy, shaggy, primitive. I feel the love physically, is constant in a breast " " feeling. When a swing - upwards. Or - when the pump air have extorted - downwards. I love you and I am torn to you not only consciousness, draught is tested by each my section. Sometimes, you it understand, it would be desirable to be awful simply weak woman. Such paradox: like it would be pulled weak to you, strong, and left - all not so, has not returned to natural - near to force! - weaknesses, and it is necessary - on the contrary: all you hold yes you behave in hands.

Monday, June 2, 2008

It Is Told, Made - Have Held Testing,

It is told, made - have held testing, have revealed similarities and distinctions. It has put on the first places of qualities of the wife feminity, , sincerity, and I for the husband general views, a physical and emotional inclination, its care. Like, and different lines of thought, and, in general, the same sights. Here, in my opinion, a problem kernel. People should be the relatives similar, but hardly identical. "If I have thought up you, become such as I want", - a beautiful song from former times, but incorrect on thought because strategy "Become such as I want", such family policy will lead , then - to unification, and then to boredom. If at all will do without accident. If, for example, he likes to be in public, and I prefer loneliness together, what, it to alter? Or on the contrary? I think, I am deeply assured: people can be different, at them characters and propensities considerably can differ, they can have discrepancies on very wide scale of opinions, but all will be as it should be if at all these distinctions their basic installations are similar! If, for example, for one main value - observance of human advantage, and for another - profit at any cost, hardly they converge for a long time - even at similarity of characters.