. Farewell Expensive Larch Natasha. There Ascends The Sun

. Farewell expensive larch Natasha. There ascends the sun powerful as light. I more understand nothing. It becomes small is small less and disappears. The nature indulges in lonely pleasure. From the play Alexander Vvedensky "Kuprijanov and Natasha" (1931) I will tell only an essence. For data: to the husband fifty four years, me fifty three and a half, to the son thirty one year, the daughter - in-law - thirty. The grandson has gone to the first class. The son grew the strong, healthy guy, studied, in army did not serve. But it has appeared not capable the girl to make the woman. To break . It is to the future wife. For excitement it was impossible, from admiration and a worship for it. The son became unsociable, malicious and began to drink, has thrown study. With its girl I had good relations. More shortly, the girl in detail to me has told all. Everything as was, and me became rather terrible. In village on this soil the young man after army was hung up. I know for certain some more cases when guys - already men, do not marry for this reason.

And Still I Wish To Tell About Its

And still I wish to tell about its activity: she directly, in plain terms, has declared to me that necessarily wants the second child and that is better, from the household point of view, to give birth in its summer. The wife wants, means, business sacred: in defined by it for conception term ten nights on end we is assiduous, I would tell, efficiently, conceived the second and with a problem have consulted successfully - in nine months Wearied have given birth to a daughter. We lived then already in separate two-room apartment, held respectable nurse Emiliju Iosifovnu, the wife was the succeeding candidate of sciences, I the young perspective head of prestigious division to live yes to rejoice. But gradually something began to poison this pleasure. Already much later, - reflecting over the accident which beginning has looked through, I have recollected insignificant as then it seemed to me an episode: playing a party with my friends, young captains-handsome men in a point in a prison way (with any subject - clothes or ornaments - after loss), it with laughter has dropped: "I also am glad to change-sguljat, but only that Egorka thus true to me remained.

And What Is Necessary, What In An Ideal?

And what is necessary, what in an ideal? The lines not crossing in one point and then dispersing, but merged together - on for the rest of the life. To me with Anastasiej it was very good, since the deepest depth of soul. Yes, all has begun for me with that first physical sensation which have amazed me when on a memorable New Year's party I have invited her to dance and has felt hands under any weightless jacket an elastic, gentle, flexible waist. This perception of a magic female nature - a slender waist over strong wide hips, this silk breast in which I was dissolved at once during slow dance, - here where rooted for me the beginning of a love shock. Yes, all has begun with deep trembling at collision with this perfect body, with this inexpressible miracle of the nature. Certainly, its nice person, certainly, high level of confidential attention to the interlocutor and the developed intelligence rather have improved and have humanly refracted the nature of my flashed inclination and physical admiration of it, but the impulse has gone, as though to tell, from below, not from a head and at all from heart.

I Only Laughed, Understanding, From What Layers Of

I only laughed, understanding, from what layers of the previous poverty similar representations about "a beautiful" life grew. It has been very constrained on high words, but I know that the love to me and fidelity to a family made an essence of its being. In a year of a joint life when she was in the family way, there was a trouble: to it have informed that with me on distant business trip (she has understood at once that in Afghanistan) there was a misfortune, but already everything is all right, the most important thing - is live and it is possible not to worry. When I have arrived, have found it in hospital: from a nervous shock there was an abortion, twins was kept. I and have not learnt, who has shown similar "care" of me. I speak about it that more and more time to tell: Darya loved me selflessly, all strong and lonely female nature, on a happy life. She aspired on to a call of duty completely to correspond to representations about this happy life. And here here we were expected by the conflict.

My Trouble - Mine And ! I

My trouble - mine and ! I will lay down, but Nastju from a sting of a venomous snake in the heart I will protect! My firm decision was that, and I felt, what not easily it is necessary to me, because very much the arrow of Alevtiny has deeply pierced my soul. The steel arrow which has been let out from hard my worthy and respected on general work, the person unfortunate and proof in the female destiny, firm in struggle for a worthy and valid place in the sun, obvious cripples in the world physical and the concealed born lyric poet in the world spiritual. Its arrow has far entered into me, and its tip was jagged. How to take this dart from the heart and not to expire blood, I, to tell the truth, did not know. already exactly breathed in the sleep, and I still was awake, and before internal my look lines of the letters read by me - for another flew one line. In the morning in a folder "To the report" one more thick letter lay. In vanity and the working day I had no time to read it. And glancing during brisk dispatching meeting at Alevtinu who on a diagonal from me sat turned pale, grown thin, unbusinesslike, contact and even cheerful with colleagues, I was lost in turmoil of thoughts.

They Almost Do Not Speak About Fleeting Former

They almost do not speak about fleeting former communications, and in my opinion in vain: sometimes one any insignificant, apparently, the stroke is capable to give essential addition to all case record. Yes, I insist - on this word: illness for all read is the developed anamnesis, that is history of disease which it is impossible to name differently, than pathological ignorance, than a pandemic ruining physical and mental health of all country, all nation. Yes what to speak about these six people: the cartographer, the diplomat, the scientific - inventor, a geologin, the climber and the teacher of the exact sciences (it ) if I, the doctor-gynecologist, has learnt female pleasure casually, only thanks to impudence and playfulness of my senior colleague on hospital branch in a resort city? I was harmonous, good myself, maybe, even is juicier, than Anastas-Artemis because carefully watched that always my skin was suntanned. Went in white moreover with deep tops on a breast and, I assure you, men were, as now speak, "in ".

Here With Such Vital And Man's Experience I

Here with such vital and man's experience I have appeared out of work. In such here a state of mind I also have met to Anastas. SPEAKS AS I BECAME the WOMAN OF EASY VIRTUE (Author's edition of heading: As I aged am more senior thirty years for the first time have felt myself as the ardent, loving woman though the previous husbands legally considered me in bed cold, almost frigid) Epigraphs to the head - When our neigbour of Mrs. Johns has replaced furniture, we too have bought new set, - Nensi to the husband Richardson has told. - hardly it has got new model "Volvo", you have immediately bought newer model of "Citroen". I do not speak, how many to us the country country house which should be got because of it cost. God with them, with these expenses, but what we will do now? - And what, at it new purchase? - At it the new husband. "At women sexual excitation stimulates blood circulation at the expense of a rush of blood (" cheeks "burn). At the majority of them, in difference from men, swelling and hardening of nipples of a mammary gland begins.

And, Maybe, Business In Internal Ours ? And

And, maybe, business in internal ours ? And even more often I recollected Nikolay's fiery looks, and in indifference of the become lifeless soul did not begin to refuse from time to time to "friends of the family" so desired joys for them. To me was all the same unless the woman's vindictive feeling at times rose, and to respectable people it was pleasant. Also has become covered smothering washing with a stale crust. Has learnt somehow my Olezhek from the boastful friend that its forehead indeed - in branchy horns, has rushed to me with shouts, feet, saliva splashes, stains on the person, and I have easy taken away his hands from the throat and have asked: "And Valery? And Ninel? And Diana?." - and it has drooped, as pierced a sphere, and : - Well that you, what for you so, yes were not anything. - Here and I did not have anything, time at you was nothing. And it has stopped short, because very much then has taken a great interest in the new theme; which promised the big success and a name in a world science.