Thursday, February 26, 2009

I Have Agreed With It. Evening I Have

I have agreed with it. Evening I have spent in shops for searches of gifts. Night slept badly. In the morning before work I with a suitcase have come to the the Ice crust and to children - and was internally terrified to that these weeks have made with it, and was glad that time is not missed yet. never asked, as I lived without it, and I never with it spoke about it. My business was to rescue it, the favourite, wife . At any I would deny everything as the guerrilla on interrogation, but, fortunately, never was an occasion to this lie. The validity as the multiton bulldozer, steel with a clang has swept on our souls, but we have survived and have kept myself for each other. When for the next day I have come for the work, managing shots have informed me that Alevtina by phone has asked it to come before to legalise papers - in view of the opened possibility urgently to take off for long business trip abroad, paper visors, has said goodbye and has left for business trip. I agree have nodded and have asked to issue the corresponding order.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

And It Is Exact, I Will Find I

And it is exact, I will find I will try! - other outcome. Anastas my favourite, trusted in me, I will not afflict you with a deadly pain, itself , and you . So there has passed all week. The scenario was all the same: the letter since morning, as a narcotic drink of passionate and selfless love, business vanity, an accurate and exemplary substantiation Alevtinoj all new and new aspects of my strategic idea, and - eyes in eyes. Without being self-controlled, I, accepting from it the scheme of interaction drawn by it with the partner, has adhered her hand. There was a full impression that it was shaken from a current so the hand was involuntarily hammered. "Is not present, no, it is not necessary. - also has rushed to doors. Suddenly it has turned and has painfully asked: - Well why? Why it is impossible?." I have answered: "I do not know." And it has disappeared. Certainly, during other times of Nastja by all means would notice that with me something is created wrong. But for the blessing or on a trouble she very much endured those days episodes with the criminal boyfriends.

What There The Reason, What Understanding - Only

What there the reason, what understanding - only I love, only I feel that you are a condition of my existence, environment, sense etc., etc. Awfully on me weather operates, even it is a shame to speak about it: directly any independence. In very bad weather I can rejoice: someone from the great characterised a baba-yaga - "Simply charm that for muck!" Some days - clouds have tightened all, the sky - one clouds both so it is low and so it is heavy - the sky which has leant the elbows on roofs. "A charm that for muck". Pljusovaja temperature - and small snow. Happens - cold, , a bronchitis. Houses - the temperature, cough, a head is turned, to rise - it is impossible. You go for work (annoyingly - to pass, every day - it is very a pity to me to lose), and there suddenly you will see you and you "are walked up and down, revive. I then very emotionally work, such manner: to squeeze out of itself all forces at your presence. The word here has somehow occurred:"furiously"I work, and illness is not present, as was not.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Yes, Not The Handsome Man, Yes, In Works

Yes, not the handsome man, yes, in works wearisome and long has turned out already two not aesthetic humps; yes bald spots on these humps are visible, but after all there are at me any advantages? And so, never expressed regrets that I not is, speaking in images, a caracoling black stallion-dvuhletka. To put it briefly, it has accepted my essence as a reality, as full my right to a life according to own installations and own temperament. Yes, certainly, she the same as also I, wanted my perfection, clearing of weaknesses, but mine, and from mine, instead of not which transmutation. Secondly, mine , my pleasure with it consisted that it was a condition of the constant support, interested approval, it was feeling of the union and the ally. My God, how many forces, years and even have left decades at me in the past on struggle against guerrilla movement in own back when former my spouses wanted that I lived so and so, on their command, instead of on the understanding. How many it was necessary to spend time, forces to return to a quiet condition, suitable for normal work, after similar shake-ups, explanations and findings-out! How many the indignant statements I have born, for example, in reply to the flat refusal to listen at breakfast when it was adjusted for new difficult day, lamentations concerning worsening vital circumstances in power! Yes, probably, they also were right in own way: they needed to dump steam and, possibly, there are on light such matrimonial combinations where since morning this information dirt is interesting to husbands.