Its Reason And Its Constant Readiness To Become

Its reason and its constant readiness to become more than it was earlier, have not lowered it to my feet on knees, but have lifted to that heights where the free human spirit soars! And in sincere awe before favourite, before this man always ready to new advance and upwards, I became on knees before it. Both the love, and my belief in it and in our life, and in our happiness have flashed in me with such new force that somewhere under the heart the shrill feeling-thought was born: Egor, I wish to give birth from you! I wish to give birth to you! I want, that through my soul and my bosom the successor of all of the best that is in people has left in the future, than Egor is for me. Probably, all my tortures and sufferings have prepared me to that this thought without any logic zigzags, the shortest way, as inspiration as the sun, has flashed in my consciousness. And I have had time to think still that all is Heavens have prompted to me, and my decision to give birth is wash with it the answer, my gratitude, my sacred debt to a universe.