It Was Already In Deep Sleepy Drowsiness, But

It was already in deep sleepy drowsiness, but has caught my hand, has kissed and has settled a head on my shoulder. I in twilight looked at it, and, my God you wash, what huge tenderness, both pity, and love, and feeling of parent responsibility for this mature husband, hazardous as the boy, enveloped all my soul, incorporated, as the huge warm cloud and dissolved in itself without the rest! Men think that we love them for force - sexual, physical, intellectual, spiritual - yes, it so, but not less that we love them as love mothers of the absolutely still small defenceless children who are ready they from all world and its misfortunes to protect the breast as preserve birds of the baby birds. In such sincere silence, in such immense tenderness I also have fallen asleep, as if have thawn in a non-existence. How many hours have passed in this condition of a total disappearance, I do not know, but something from the outside has begun to disturb me, to solicit my attention. Light from not curtained off east window? I have started to turn from it to Egor and have felt that the hindrance is connected with it: something firm as a log that pressed before to me in a hip, is so sharp after my movement has rested against a stomach bottom that I even - from unexpectedness and a pain.