So Why All It Stalos-has Happened, Why? Why?!

So why all it stalos-has happened, why? Why?! Why?!! Any damned fate hung over me: whether a malefice, whether a paternoster, whether slander. After all all it already was, was! Start up not those sizes, but was! As quickly became once at us with Ippolitom, and after all first it was really sincerely is ignited by me. And anybody other, except me most, in that was not guilty. And Oleg? After all I was for it the unattainable sample of the woman, the goddess but to what all has come and quickly enough? To its trite bed (fie-fie, I do not wish and to recollect its passions, the girlfriends , my "comforters", stupid , other word I will not pick up). And besides the fault was only my and nobody's more! What it for a damnation on me such, what for misfortune?! Yes, I would like to live, to rejoice, love still, especially now when I know, what this such, but, maybe, above yourself you will not jump? Perhaps, to reconcile? The third time is given to me this sign: can be, should me get mind and comprehend sense of triple instructions of a finger Divine? On that and to be consoled, yes all to a shower my guilty, all would be desirable it to rejoice lives in all breadth, already once the experienced.